Juz For You

My Life So Far...

2005-11-26T17:50:00.000+08:00

hi guys! I'm back wif a beri long post of wad i've been doin since my last post... kiex.. lets start ...

18th Nov 2005-St John Camp 7am
1st day in st john camp.... reach skool @ 6.45... fall in @ 7.... den got bag check... den fall in again... not feelin well.. *lyke last time skool ndp lyke tt*.... fall out... chong wei also... coz he no eat breakfast.... pitch tent and flag staff.... go cdans fer high elements.... we do flyin fox 1st... scary sia... @ 1st no dare.... 2nd time den do... legs beri wobbly.... *cry* den lunch coz rain.... eat le beri tired.... go back 2 high elements.... climb tt log.... *my gosh it's high high into da sky....* dun dare bud managed 2 get my leg up on da log and moved... 2 steps?? dun dare come down.... Instructor victor 'save' me down lol... onli 1 kana save down by instructor.... tremblin there..... wen back skool.... had tent checked... den @ night got ice-breakin by sec 2s... fun games... after tt, asked 2 wash up... onli did a dry bath... den wen down fer supper....green bean soup... den sleep @ tents.... @ 1st quite okay.... bud @ night, beri cold.... luckily got windbreaker... or else freeze 2 death le... lol... den outside tent still got crickets.... sho noisy cannot sleep.. da whole tent wake up... den i went toilet wif hannah... cold sia... den wen we went back, not long lata, sze him wake us up say muz go indoors coz lighnin.... den went back bunk sleep... bud cannot sleep...

PS: thnks instructor victor of flying fox.... thnks fer encouragin me & push me down... haha... thnks instructor victor of high elements... fer savin me down.... even though u scolded me on top.... :P.... thnks fer da other 2 instructor hu i dunnoe hu beside 1 hu is instructor ivan... fer encouragin me...

19th Nov 2005-St john Camp
we were asked 2 fall in @ 5.50. den we hab changin parade.... use 3 min change into full-u... we changed.... den wen we fall in back, we learn sizin... den we took our new buckle frm sir derrick coz nxt yr we r goin 2 join da ndp... COOL.... den we were told tt we MAY be habbin promotion parade tt day / nxt dae... den we were asked 2 changed back 2 pt....den we had flag rasin & breaskfast den triage theory. after tt got team buildin by sec 3s.... fun too.... our grp all finished.... waitin fer other grps... played a game of captain ball wif sirs and other grps... fun.... den after all grps finished, we played blind mice.... kana blindfold... realli cannot c.... den play... after tt lunch... den got casualty simulation by ssgt shen yang.... beri fun... play wif 'blood' lol... bud got difficulty in washin up... coz plastercine stick on hand... den got crime prevention @ ava rm... i sho tired... den got footdrill.... den got campfire preparation.... den it rained suddenly... bud it stopped in time... den got campfire... quite fun..... den after tt, we fall in.... den tot did sumtink rong... goin 2 kana.... den kana pumpin.... den suddenly splash water wif hose... den we all wet... den we start water bombin... can bomb officers... cool rite... lol... den we all wet... asked 2 wash up after tt... den hab supper... den lights off... bud tis time sleep in class... coz rain 2 heavily le.. tent tio water... cannot sleep le... lol... sho went back bunk sleep... bud cannot sleep.. coz also 2 cold le..

20th Nov 2005-St john Camp
got fire drill.... all wake... wen down assemble.. beri cold... shiverin lyke siao... den tio scoldin coz no asked others come down.... den realised got triage drill... den go save ppl... saw shaiful cannot save him 1st... coz triage is suppose 2 save da betta 1 1st den da dyin 1... lol... sho he poor tink... laid tt no 1 go bother him den save him last... den those hu r 1st aiders bcom casualties... den i need use strecher de... den bein moved 2 parade sq... after tt, got our promotion parade... all sec 1 promoted 2 lance... cool rite... haha.... den asked 2 changed back 2 pt.... den breakfast, den area cleanin... den got lunch, after tt crime preventation test... easy... den got debrief, give awards den go hme... fun.... grp 2 got da most united award....

forget date le...- exercise wif yuling...
wen down & exercise wif yuling... wen 2 da senior citizen exercise place play wif da tinks there... lol...

26th Nov 2005-Kayaking @ Chinese Garden 8.30am-3pm
reached chinese garden @ 8 sumtink.... walked there... met instructor... took da 'boat' and paddle. learn how to get into da wata wif ur body inside da wata.... shoe almost stuck coz muddy down there.... managed 2 get into da boat.paddle round... wata splash here splash there.... few minutes after explorin ourselves, gather round instructor... (mine is instructor Joel... same grp as me got Yong Ting, Chong Wei, May, Hui Sze, Sze Him, Wan Lin, Me, Joey and yan ying) paddle 2 other side of da river.... den we learn how paddle forwad, backwards and movin by da side and turnin left right and 360 degrees, stopping and da low braze....play around.... noon... lunch... chicken rice + dunnoe wad drink... (suppose 2 b cherry??) after tt went back 2 paddle... bud tis time get into da boat 1st den enter wata by movin ur body sidewards 2 make it tilt... den into da wata... it's fun.... den paddle back 2 where we r.... dunnoe learn wad... (in da wad we learn there... which is highlighted in purple blue) den it rained... soft den big den soft den big... (wadeva...) den big rain, muz paddle back... back 2 shore da whole body wet... and it's cold!!! den we clean our shoes... (which is beri muddy)and den help out wif da cleanin of boat... & we r being spray by wata wen cleanin.... rain soft.... asked 2 change... bud clothes dry fast... sho no need... den wen walk out, big rain... cold!!! ergg... den took taxi back... den reach home bath... den watch show... den online.... den i tink watch show again ba... lookin forward 2 tomorrow's capsizin... LOL

27th Nov-Kayaking Course @ Chinese Garden 8.30am-3pm
last day of da course... today we will learn how 2 capsize!!! change instructor... well, not really change la... is more instructor... more 1... forget name le.. onli noe initials r JC.... coz of tt 'joke'.... nvm... capsized.... no 1 wan go volunteer.... den i go lor... Jc tell me lata wad 2 do... den we paddle back... den i demo... bud kaya 2 big... cannot go down... Joel asked JC 2 demo himself.... den he demo... den we do capsizin... i still cannot capsize... after musch strength, i finally capsized by myself... den did wad it's required....den got test on wad we had learn.... all pass..den lunch... same tink... chicken rice+mango juice... todae 1 betta.. nicer 2 drink... den instructor asked hu wan use playboat (instructor de kaya) my grp no 1 wan except me.... den wen down... quite fun... bud cannot control... travel in circles... lol... den wen back 2 where we r.... den i wan capsized... den capsized le cannot go up.. coz slipperly + i no energy le.... den wen 2 near da shore 2 climb up... finally got up.. den no energy... den they splash wata... i tio splash too by 2 instructors.... *diao* den play play a bit den wen back... den clean up kaya... kana splash wata again by instructors by hose... den clean le wen clean up... no change clothes.. coz dryin up soon 2den wen hme... den go online... den watch tv.... den sleep beri early...

28th Nov- Home
wake up wif big patches of sun burnt on legs... pain sia... lyke roast pig lyke tt.... den head also got bruise... tink frm da paddle tt sum1 hit me wif... *accidentally* den hand also got sun burnt bud not tt obivious... muscles aches.... *sigh* even though pain, bud kayakin course beri fun... gonna nice it...

afraid...

2005-11-08T17:50:00.000+08:00

2 my bestiex....

dunnoe y... suddenly scared 2 go sec 3....

i scared we r not in da same class.. den our friendship will lyke fade away.... i scared there's no 1 2 share my problems wif... i scared there's no 1 2 cry wif... no 1 2 stay in da toilet wif me juz 2 make me smile... no 1 will go crazy wif me... no 1 2 go limbang wif me.... no 1 2 go lot 1 wif me.... beri scared sia....

remember how we met at da 1st dae of skool....bois were in grps so were da gals.... not beri united.... doesn't care... bud soon, mths passed... started 2 talked, and played, and most importantly, care. after sho mani competitions wif other class, we started 2 b united...

and da yr seem 2 slip away quietly, wifout us noticin, it had soon came 2 da end... 1 mor yr ahead, and we will all go, 2 our classes.... dunnoe how's life gonna wen we went diff ways...

Basic Nursing Course

2005-11-06T21:01:00.000+08:00

wake up @ 2 sumtink... (kana woken up by sista... went hongkong...) then go back sleep... wake up @ 5 sumtink AGAIN... (cannot sleep coz wanna call aisyah...) wake up @ 6 sumtink AGAIN... (tt's da pro... fer habbin tinks on ur mind & u CAN'T even sleep well..) den sleep a few mins... wake up & call aisyah... den she still asleep... decided not 2 go yt mrt met amelia & may... wen ourself... took bus 2 cck mrt.... da bus is bloody super cold lor... wad the freak... took train... reached je mrt... e train come then amelia called... bout 7.30... ask us wait there... lata train go then decided 2 wait fer them at the concourse's burger king.... 8.30 they reached... after finished our breakfast, wen 2 hq... saw da bois there... go in... dunnoe y kana by a uncle... waited there fer sir kennneth... late by 12 min.... wen in 2 nursing rm 2... hab lesson there... how measure bp, how feel pluse & respiration how check temp. quite fun... (esp, usin da bp set.... cool man...) @ 12.30 wen fer lunch... 1hr... went burger king eat tt burger... quite big... da drink also... lyke mac's upsized.... $6... eat already quite full.... wen back 2 hq, beri full... continue lesson... learn how make bed, how push people ( in a kind way) and how get people from bed 2 chair and chair 2 bed... quite cool.. also beri fun... looked forward 2 nxt training... went home @ 5pm... sho reached home @ 6 sumtink.... den bath and eat... go watch show... then come online.. tt's all

Wang Zi Bian Qing Wa...

2005-11-05T14:58:00.000+08:00

juz finish watchin da fridae's wang zi bian qing wa... wang zi bian qing wa is endin soon.... end at 24th now... den wld b followd by zhen ming tian nu... by S.H.E de.... i tink is quite nice de la...

wang zi bian qing wa tt dae is wen junhao met tianyu @ da house tt tianyu & dang-ou went 2getda... it says how junhao tells tianyu tt da person he likes is tianyu and not yunxi... wen tianyu heard, she droped her MADAM RUBY TRUE LOVE ring... den junhao wans 2 put it fer her... den she moved away wif da ring NOT on her hand... she told junhao tt da ring does not hab any special significane fer her le... it only means tt ziqian will be wif her forever... den she ran out of da house... den junhao tried 2 persuade her 2 give hima chance... den she dun wan & threw da ring wif da necklane into da swimming pool.... junhao dived in 2 find... tianyu ran away... nxt day, junhao told yunxi tt he wan 2 cancell da wedding... yunxi angry... den show tianyu resigned frm senwell... yunxi saw her... asked her whether she will give them her blessings... tianyu say yes... yunxi also invited her 2 go 2 their weddin wif ziqian... a toolbox on top dropped down... tianyu pished yunxi away... bud, yunxi bangd in2 da glass door, causin her 2 hab a scar on her neck and shoulder.... tt's all...

wah.... sho touched sia... by ziqian & junhao... how they protected tianyu.... looked forward fer wednesdae show...

Last Day...

2005-10-29T14:23:00.000+08:00

Yesteeday is da last day on Term 4.... last day of being a Sec 1.... first day of HOLIDAYS!!! wad i've habbin tis hols...

18-20 nov: SJAB's ATC
12 nov: KSS's Open House
4th nov: back 2 skool fer IT

um... tis is wad i noe fer da moment... :P

For u...

2005-10-27T17:47:00.000+08:00

yi zhi hao xiang gao shu ni, wo you duo me de xi huan ni... wo xiang, huo xu mian dui ni, wo hui shao diao wo ceng jing yong you de na yi zhong yong gan... wo bu gan shuo chu mai zai xin li hen jiu de gan shou... yin wei wo hai pa shi qing de jie guo hui bu ru wo yuan... you shi, zhen de hen xi wang neng gao shu zi ji zhi yao gen zhe gan jue zou jiu ke yi le... dan, shi qing you jiang jian dan ma? wo zhen de ke yi you yong qi he ni shuo hua ma? zhe xie wen ti de da an hao xiang dou shi bu... hai pa de wo xuan ze le li kai, xuan ze le tao bi. wo zhi dao zhe bu shi wo yi xiang lai de zuo fa... wo ye zhi dao zhe bu shi jie jue wen ti de hao ban fa ma...mei ci kan jian ni, dou hao xiang zou guo qu he ni shuo hua... jiu suan shi yi ge jian dan de wen hou dou kan si hao nan... wei she me?? shi ni zai tao bi, hai shi wo? yi qian de wo men bu shi ke yi zai yi qi wan you xi de ma? yi qian de wo men bu shi ke yi shuo hua de ma? dou hao xiang wo shuo de. yi qian... yi qian de shi guang... zhen huai nian... dan shi ren zong yao xiang qian de... wo ye bu li wai... dan shi wo chang shi zai yuan di deng, ke shi yu jian de, hao xiang dou bu shi ni... suan le... wo ye wu fa yao qiu she me... yin wei zhe shi ni zi ji de xuan ze... wo zhi xi wang, ni neng kai xin...

TODAY

2005-10-26T15:50:00.000+08:00

Today skool until 10.30 onli... sho da whole day we played tug-of-war until shoe sho yucky... budden we managed 2 play till da semi-finals?? i DID play... it was sho cool lor... budden at 1st not realli wan... coz 'them' beri near us.... budden play & play then beri enthu lor... and we managed 2 win 1A... then da rest of da classes played.... um... 1D did played... bud... nvm.... then da nxt match wif 1B.... ergg... they all sho strong lor... da refree 1, 2, 3 *pip* then they pull le... we were lyke being dragged lor.... then after tt go wait at parade sq... then mr seah tok... then we were lyke the 2nd last class 2 go off lor... wad the.... then walked 2 Lot 1... um... got 1 grp of ppl infront us... (yuling, me and yee gin) they walk si bei slow sia.... but at last they fast already la... stepped into Lot 1... say 'the bi ji men' walkin 2 da escalator (2 Long John de).... decided 2 take lift coz dun wan b wif them... reached B1.... saw them da moment lift door open... wad da... then found out they didn't enter Long John... sho quickly walked in... then saw.... xuanyu and kunda and some other guys la... then we placed out bags on da table right infront of them... then go line up... then saw 'bi ji men' okay not saw is HEAR.... they were bloody extremely LOUD lor... then gy was TALKIN 2 ask them wad they wan lor... then eat until cannot tahan le.. i turn round and ask them veri politely :"can u juz soften down? it's veri noisy'.... well, not long lata they walked out... budden not veri quiet also.... pathetic sia... after they walked out... xy and friend also go out le.... then after finish eatin we also go out... i and yuling go aries... gin go hme.... um.... a bit siao there... then wen library... (c, sho guai) find bks... um... i found more bks than her... haha... then borrow le go hme.... tt's the end

I'm back

2005-10-24T16:50:00.000+08:00

today wen limbang eat... saw tis guy hu had a cross stuck on his butt.... quite funny.... laughed lyke siao... amelia and gin didn't c.... sho we waited fer da guy 2 come out frm toilet... budden cahnged pants....

i dunnoe whether they had forgiven me.... they seems as cold.... i dunnoe wad 2 do..... *sigh*

StoRy..

2005-09-09T16:03:00.000+08:00

You said between us

there's a story,

a beautiful story.

between the stars and us.

You said that stars are weak,

and stars will drop.

when someone frome the Earth

crys sadly.

You said in my world,

stars will never drop.

as you will be there,

to put them back.

You said my world,

will never be black

as the stars you held,

will led me dark.

You said never be afraid,

as you will always be there,

the stars will also be there

to keep me accompany.

But one day, you failed.

you failded to finish,

your beautiful story.

between the stars and us.

From that day,

the stars from my world drop,

ane my world turned completely dark,

just because you leave me.

One day, sooner or later,

the stars will be put back,

the story will continue to play,

but it's just that, you are not there...

"I said the world without you seems empty,

the world without you seems dark.

But i believe, sooner or later,

the stars that i back,

will lead me out of here."

Preview of my life....

2005-09-08T20:08:00.000+08:00

6th September....
oral day... reached skool @ 7 sumtink... damn early de.... um... quite okay la.... wait at learning center not really nervous... (wen waitin) wen reached da hall, nervous le... budden go in da hall not nervous again... after tt go lot 1... actually wan go library de budden not open yet... so we went long john... see vincent... eat combo 1... gin scared c 1d de.... budden didn't.... go take neoprint.... twice... coz 1st time forgot select how many ppl de.... diao.... after tt, gy called nat's name beri loud... we shocked... c them... end of day

7th september.....
wen c dentist fer da braces tinky... um... make da mould tink then x-ray.... x-ray quite fun la... um... wake up bloody morning... reached home tired le... budden still watch tv and play comp... :P.... then sleep... then wake up head bloody pain.... cannot tahan.... eat panadols... sleep.... @ bout 8 sumtink feelin betta.... um... eat dinner... watch tv.. sleep again

8th september....
go skool again fer science... bloody sia... go skool sho many time... we late.... coz i late go down... budden not veri late la.... go skool c 1d de.... go ava cannot find them.... come down c joaquim... ask him... he say in 1d class... ran there... sho tired... after lesson go lot 1 go library.... go eat ... c 1d de again.... then go wait fer library open.... walk walk walk... finally open.... go borrow recipe fer da home econ de.... and got borrow snow angel bk.... end of day

My colour

2005-09-03T21:25:00.000+08:00

BLUE

You give your love and friendship unconditionaly. You enjoy long, thoughtful conversations rich in philosophy and spirituality. You are very loyal and intuitive.

Find out your color at Quiz Me!

Mie de inner valentine heart

2005-09-03T21:18:00.000+08:00

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My quiz

2005-09-02T16:05:00.000+08:00

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My dog breed

2005-09-01T15:49:00.000+08:00

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Wad my birthdate means

2005-08-31T17:20:00.000+08:00

Your Birthdate: January 10

Your birth on the 10th day of the month adds a tone of independence and extra energy to your life.

The number 1 energy suggest more executive ability and leadership qualities than you path may have indicated.

A birthday on the 10th of any month gives greater will power and self-confidence, and very often a rather original approach.

This 1 energy may diminish your ability and desire to handle details, preferring instead to paint with a broad brush.

You are sensitive, but your feeling stay somewhat repressed.

You have a compelling manner that can be dominating in many situations.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

my birth order test...

2005-08-31T17:17:00.000+08:00

You Are Likely a Third Born

At your darkest moments, you feel vulnerable.
At work and school, you do best when you're comparing things.
When you love someone, you tend to like to please them.

In friendship, you are loyal to one person.
Your ideal careers are: sales, police officer, newspaper reporter, inventor, poet, and animal trainer.
You will leave your mark on the world with inventions, poetry, and inspiration.

The Birth Order Predictor

Chinese...

2005-08-31T16:46:00.000+08:00

i try 2 make into poem la... budden i fail lor... pathetic....

wo bu gan man yuan yin wei zhe shi wo yi xiang qing yuan huo xu you yi tian ni hui fa xian qi shi dui wo lai shuo ni shi quan shi jie

wo xu yao cheng qiang yin wei wo bi xu zhe yan qi lai wo xin zhong de hai pa he gu dan

hui yi li de ni shi zue wan mei de yin wei zai xian shi zhong ni yi jing bian le

wo de shi jie li yin wei you ni er can lan qi lai ye yin wei ni er duo chu le ji mo

ai qing bu ke pa er shi ta yi hou dai lai de xin sui he xin tong

zhi guai wo de ai bu gou yong gan yi zhi cheng mo de yuan yuan kan zhe ni wei xiao.... rang yi qie shi cheng da hai... sui ran zhi dao ni de xiao rong bu shi yin wei wo er chu xian de dan shi zhi yao ni kai xin wo jiu kai xin....

fer u guys...

2005-08-31T16:36:00.000+08:00

tis poem is specially fer sf, nat, gin and those hu were beside mie wen i needed u...

remember what we gone through?

remember where we gone before?

remember how we stood by one another,

when troubles seems to drop?

remember when we were happy?

remember why do we quarrel?

remember who get us together,

when our friendship seems to fall?

i will always remember,

how we pass our school lives,

with warmth, fun, joy and laughter.

this will always be craved,

right deep in my heart.

thanks for being there,

that's what i always wanted to say.

when i'm tire, and need a shoulder to lean,

when i'm troubled, and need someone to share my problems with,

when i'm sad, and need a hand to clean my tears away,

when life wasn't really that great,

when i flunk my important exams,

it was you guys,

who would always be there.

it's you allm

who makes me smile,

who makes me think that nothing is impossible,

with you guys around.

but i'm afraid,

that parting would came,

and we would all left.

but i just wanted to say,

when years pass,

we would still stood by one another,

and letting the whole world knows,

that our friendship will never end....

Poems.... frm ruby

2005-08-31T16:28:00.000+08:00

Fallin in luv is a kind of happiness
Falling out of luv is a kind of sadness
Bein wif u is a kind of sweetness
A world w/o u is a kind of.....kind of.....MEANINGLESS

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

onli on tat dae tat u were gone
now tat i realised tat i can't lose u
remembering e happie moments tat we spent
making me cry n wail

now tat u were not here
nobody was there 2 pick e stars 4 mi
Why???.....
Why?Why muz u torture mi lyk tis?

do u noe tat i cry everi nite 4 u?
Oh! how i wish tat u were by my side....
holdin on 2 my hands, tellin me wad 2 do
sittin by e beach, watchin e beautiful sun sets

How could u leve mi alone?How?
Do u bear 2 leave mi?
Can u bear 2 leave mi?
Juz lyk tis.....

~~~~~~~~~~~~

da above poem is written by ruby... mie de frend....

Bloody suckin life...

2005-08-30T21:00:00.000+08:00

I HATE MY LIFE SIA..... Y SHOW AS IF U CARE WEN U DON'T???????????? Y MUZ U JUZ DRAG ME IN WEN I DON'T WANT?????????? CAN'T YOU JUZ LEAVE ME ALONE??????????? CAN'T YOU JUST NOT ACT IN FRONT OF ME???????? IT'S DAMN BLOODY OBIVIOUS LOR..... SUCKFREAKO!!!!!!!!!! AND WAD BOUT YOU?????? CAN YOU JUZ STOP SHOWING ME YOUR FREAKING ATTITUDE?????????? WHO DO YOU THINK YOU R???????????? U HAVE NO RIGHTS TO COMMAND ME!!!!!!!!!!!!! I DO WAD I WAN AND I DON'T CARE HOW YOU TINK!!!!!!!! SO WAD IF YOU R BETTA??????? SO WAD IF HAD GONE??????? SO WAD IF YOU KNOW MORE?????? SO WAD IF YOU R JUZ THE MAIN????? THE ONE WHO IS IN CHARGE OF EVERYTHING????? I KNOW TT I'M EXTRA!!!!!!!!! I KNOW TT!!!!!!! YOU TINK I WAN IZIT?????? I DON'T LOR!!!!!!!!! JUZ STOP YOUR FREAKING ATTITUDE LOR..... IT SUX!!!!!!!!!!!

Life.... Terrible....

2005-08-27T17:07:00.000+08:00

i dunnoe wad happen 2 u all lor.... mayb i'm too sensitive le... budden, do u all noe tt it hurt anot? leavin mie all alone & go by urself... do u noe how sad i am wen i noe tt? after tt, i'm waitin. waitin fer u all 2 come and ask mie lor.... budden, wad u do? nothing at all lor... is it bcoz u all noe her liaoz? if it's true juz say. i dun wan 2 b sum1 hu still stick wif u all if u all dislike mie....

today First Aid Exam... died.... i tot onli test chapter 1 to 5 onli... wen i reached & saw mariz, she say is da whole cd.... died died... still got chp 6 - 13 habben study norx.... sho i study while waitin lor.... bud dunnoe y ley.. no mood study.... then not feeling well also sia.... sho managed to read a bit of tis and a bit of tt.... then we waited until 10 sumtink.... (we were supposed 2 meet at 9.45) then is everybody reached le lor... except.... her.... then after waitin fer quite long.... shaiful call her home.... then her mum say she go off early wif them le lor... wad the.... then at da lecture rm 4, i sit wif mariz... then da exams... quite easy fer those hu study la... (duh) then after exams, we had da pratical, we (mariz and me...) got 2 bandage usin da elevation sling.... after tt, we were dismissed.... go home wif 2 seniors.... not feelin well at mrt station.... then wen home mieself... sleep beri long.... end of mie day

Life...

2005-08-25T21:25:00.000+08:00

life hab been a struggle fer mie and mie frew... we r undergoin sort of frewnship problem.... we decided 2 trust tt person once more after tt incident, bud, she had shown us tt she is not worth it... wad hab happen? it's juz bcoz of her and sho mani de frewnship were gone...

we shld hab know it,

we shld hab.

we shld not put sho mani frewnship at stake,

at risk.

we didn't noe...

all da tinks wld turn out 2 b sho bad,

sho sour,

and sho sad.

we noe it's our fault,

we noe tt...

we hab gain our punishment,

by lettin us lost da frewnship.

bud, we r willin 2 change,

we r willin 2 forget everytink,

and star everytink again.

bud, euur disallowed,

euur disagreed.

euur had set euur mind,

to keep us away.

Fun and joyous dae...

2005-08-23T18:12:00.000+08:00

Today is da most fun day i ever had lor... okay... not i ever had la... and not everyday la... got sum not... bud i'm NOT goin to type it here....
today i dunnoe wad happen 2 mie le... i reach skool then siao liao... we had to present our geo de project todae.... mie, gin and amelia go.... then da comp cannot open da thumbdrive.... wad da.... then we used da cd de.... then no 1 is listenin 2 us lor... we were lyke tokin 2 ourself lyke tt... sia la... then we get bloody low lor... recess, um... nothing fun 2 rite... um... got... it rained... coz i damn hot.... chinese, we get back our common test... da old de....then i get 35/50... juz get a distinction.... quite gd le la... okay.... Cindy had get the top fer da class.... gd work cindy!!! u rulz sey.... 1D also gd la.... get 2nd and 3rd... tink is simin and yijun... wah... yijun sey... cannot believe it lor... well, actually not tt suprise la... yesterdae his xiao lao shi already sho gd liao.... then after chinese is science.... tis is where da REAL fun comes lor.... 1st amalina and asyikin continued their presentation tt they had stopped yesterday... they showed the video.... the video is lyke sho funny lor... da voice of da guy and gal de.... sho funni sey... after theirs is yen teng and cindy de... their worst!!! da whole class laughed lyke siao.... yen teng la.... she explained until sho funni.... then we were laughing and laughing... Mr Foo also.... da whole class is lyke bursting into laugher every second lor.... sho fun sey.... after theirs, is izzah and diyanah de... okay... theirs is not tt gd la.... coz their no laughther... coz no yen teng.... if yen teng surely explained till laughed de.... well, bud theirs is also gd la.... at least they managed to finish their presentation wif sum question... no lyke our geo.... no reply de.... :(... okay mayb our class is not mornin ppl.... btw, thnks 2 those hu listened 2 our presentation.... then HOM..... almost kana.... coz 4 ppl pass up journal onli.... then we had till friday..... thnks! then we get back our english common test... pathetic result.... 18/30... no improvement.... btw, Ms Tang say tt guy hu pass da paper to her is Ms Fazlin's husband.... omg... cannot c.... 2 busy tokin le.... sigh.... then self-study period.... (we no assembly..) we survived frm Mr Koh's teachin... haha... jkjk.... then wen it's time fer us 2 go, he was lyke dun allow lor... we tell him he still no believe sey.... then finally go ask 1D.... at last, we can go le... we changed into our swimsuits and go swimming lor.... gin, mie, amelia go wet ourselves.... cindy and yuling under umbrella..... then at swimming complex then Mr Yeo say no swimming... postpone.... wad da.... we tried 2 plead him 2 allow us go in... he say no.... sigh... sho sad.... then we no go home... we walked back limbang go Mac.... then at Mac, we laughed and laughed lyke siao.... gin laughed until her muscle kana pain... haha... then wen we left, at bus, mie, amelia and yu ling also laughed lyke siao.... okay.... in total, today is quite fun....

Happi birthday....

2005-08-22T17:29:00.000+08:00

this part of post is SPECIALLY for Amelia Tsan Xiu Yu:
happi birfdae 2 euu! grow older le hor... 13 liao lor... unlucki no.... haha.. jkjk.... all da best 2 ur studiex and ST JOHN and PREFECTORIAL board.... hope u pass ur exams wif flyin colors.... then st john... hope u pass ur FA exams la.... then get rank... then prefectorial board... hope u cana be head level la...
this part is for FOXY...
i dunnoe hu r u and i dun intend to noe... *no offence* i realli dunnoe wad i did 2 make u tink tt i'm actin cute lor... and i dunnoe wad i did 2 make u hate mie sho much lor... bud i realli have nothing 2 comment on da tag... i can't go and argue rite? okay... maybe i can... budden, i dun wan... mayb wad i say or do u not happi la... mayb u tink tt i'm actin cute.... bud.... if tt's wad u tink, i had no comments....
wad happen todae...
today is amelia's birthday... lyke wad i mention eariler.... then we spray her wif water.... thrice... 1st is after da common test... da common test is bloody difficult lor... partly is bcoz i no study la.... :P 2nd is wen we r in skool, after everytink tt we had 2 do.... kana scolded by auntie... opps.... sorry auntie... we were tryin 2 'bash' amelia up... ... sorry.... 3rd... wen we were outside skool... tis is da worst lor... amelia is lyke totally wet and wet.... and we were lyke helpin her dry up lor... then still got 1 bottle of water.... yang qi kana... haha....

to all 6Dians

2005-08-20T16:40:00.000+08:00

anyone frm 6D going back on teacher's day?

Going Back:
ME!

Sianzation dae

2005-08-20T16:22:00.000+08:00

todae is part of LIFE SUX chapter 2... todae is pure sianzation dae lor... sho tired sey... wan sleep... bud cannot sleep... is wad they sae um... physical tired bud not mind tired.... okay.... i dun undertsnad a single freakin word i sae k? juz ignore tis...

LIFE SIMPLY SUX....

2005-08-18T20:25:00.000+08:00

tink of a club... called Anti-Life Club.... in short, ALC, it's moto is LIFE SIMPLY SUX.... i tink de.... pro rite.... i noe... jkjk... euu will noe wad happen 2 mie... then euu will noe tt LIFE SIMPLY SUX.....
*tis is NOT part of LIFE SIMPLY SUX programme....*
todae at recess, we (gin, mie and yuling) were rushin mad fer da art... saw kwai.... asked her dedicate a song 2 mie.... coz i sianz... wan hear song.... then she agreed, then disappeared.... then not long lata, got hear a message.... fer mie and gin... frm Shufen and Nat.... tong hua.... we were damn touched lor... budden, Shufen and gin de EQ 2 high le.... they cried... omg.... i scared sey... then Nat kyke on da verge of cryin also... scared mie sey.... then i console them la... go hug hug them.... then recess over lor.... *thnks alot gals.... it's lyke sho suprised lor.... and 2 tink tt we onli noe u 2 fer dunnoe how long onli lor... and we even had unpleasant tink happen b4 lor.... tong hua, our song.... da only 4 of us....*

Life really started to sux after art.... which is MATHS and PDP..... maths is okay... bud PDP.... ERGG!!!! how can pdp ever be gd since euu-noe-hu is our ..... (1Cs, tink euu noe...) ??? it's lyke sho bloody lor... wad rite du euu hab 2 look down on us?? wad rite du euu hab 2 compare us wif others??? wad da use of comparin??? we r known as 1C bcoz we r wad we r.... if we were lyke other classes, y muz we b known as 1Cs??? juz known as 1wadeva can le lor.... sho STOP comparin us wif da other class.... euu not happi 2 teach us izit??? dun teach la... as if we wan euu beri much lyke tt.... if euu dun teach us, we SURELY celebrate de lor... and 1C IS CAPABLE OF GETTING 100% DISTINCTION DE LOR.... DON'T EVER LOOK DOWN ON US.... IT'S JUZ WHETHER WE WAN 2 WORK HARD OR WE DUN..... AND REMEMBER EUUR PROMISE HOR.... EUU PROMISE US TT EUU WILL APOLOGISED 2 US IN FRONT OF DA WHOLE SKOOL DE LOR.... BE SURE TT EUU CAN DO WAD EUU SAY... JUZ LYKE WE CAN DO WAD EUU HAD CHALLENGED.....
sho now, do euu tink mie life sux???

Sick and Tired....

2005-08-17T22:02:00.000+08:00

I declare tt life simply suckz at this particular moment of mie de life.... juz cannot understand wad the freak is tt freako tinkin lor... she already asked le lor... and wad euu wan?? euu boi sey.... she gal lor... (use euur knee tink also can la... unless euu no knee... then i notink sae le...) and had pud down her de pride le lor... euu ley?? okay la... mayb cannot force da 2 of euu 2gether la... gal, juz wanna tell euu, dun cry hor.... muz b strong.... no use cry over boi... (i noe i hab no rite 2 sae la...) u dun hab 2 cry over sum1 hu wld not cry fer euu de lor... (okay mayb he will....) juz b strong okay?? euur frendz will b by euur side no matter wad de lor.... enf of her le... next, i dunnoe y la... tis year got lots of problem wif frendz... 1st is da cold war tinky... then is her tinky.... next is her tinky.. then now is them tinky.... (dun understand izit?? da 'her's r all different galz....) wtf lor... wad euu wan galz?? we DIDN'T neglect euu all lor... it's juz... okay i had explained to her le... and i dunnoe wad la... it's long ago we find out le lor... it's lyke sho o lor.... nvm bout tis.... tis week dunnoe wad happen 2 mie lor.... i simple wan 2 rest lor... i dun even wan play lor... okay la... maybe i DID ( captain ball....) i also dun wan 2 work lor... i'm lookin forward 2 end of skool wen i can go home and SLEEP.... sigh.... slackin sey... dunnoe wad 2 do... sian sey... next, dunnoe y.... tis week damn unlucky sey.... wen tues goin 2 AVA fer chinese, we kana stop by prefects... all bcoz 1D didn't wear tie properly... sia la... (i had no offence lor...) then it's lyke we were being lectured fer dunnoe how many minutes lor... (poor 1Cs....) then at AVA also scolded by teacher.... budden shorter la.. coz no time fer lesson if tok again... haha... then da 2 sucko is lyke sho damn happi juz bcoz they taller then mie lor... wtf lor... if euu in sec skool le still shorter den mie then euu damn pathetic le lor... (ONLY FER BOIS.... no offence fer gals... and fer those hu is not tt tall.... ) wad's da use 2 b happi juz bcoz euu taller den mie.... pathetic sucko...and juz now la... i DID notink rong lor.... i juz... okay i admit tt i'm partly fault... i shld ask euu all 1st OKAY??? happi now?? suckfreako lor..... LIFE JUZ SIMPLY SUCKZ NOW>>>>

Blog Skin.... CHANGED AGAIN

2005-08-14T17:15:00.000+08:00

well, fer all my regular customers.... u muz had discovered tt i had changed my blog skin again and this is mie de 3rd skin... 1st skin, da black in color de.... well, it seems messy as there's no own column fer da post, profiles and all da tinks... 2nd skin, da pinkish color de... it's MORE organised dan da 1st de.... budden, the column size too small le... cannot read post properly.... 3rd skin.... da skin u c now... is da same organised dan da 2nd de.... budden da column size is far way bigger.... can c da post properly now.... haha.... then no song le... coz cannot find da song tt suit it... give ideas at mie tagboard... thnks...

NEW BLOG SKIN!!!!!!!

2005-08-13T17:26:00.000+08:00

I had changed my blog skin.... is it nice?? is it betta than da old 1?? i change coz da old 1 lyke beri messy lyke tt... den da new de is more neater... got their own column... no squeaze together le... u all lyke it anot?? leave comments at my taggie... thnks...

Kranji's 10th Year Anniversary -- Dansical

2005-08-13T17:09:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was Kranji's 10th Year anniversary celebrations... we had a dansical @ NTU auditorium.... reached @ 7 sumtink... c most frenz... most come wif frenz... others wif parents... most ppl wear damn nice... haha... the title of our dansical is called "The Quest-A Kranjian Learning Journey"

da programmes r all beri nice.... esp. da time when gy came out.. he acted as the Cheshire... da 1 wif da C-A-T.... and tok 2 da hand... haha... he was sho funni..... and made every1 in da auditorium laughed.... (well, tink is every1... coz laughter quite loud??)

da lessons in da morning ended early... @ 10 am... actually @ 9 sumtink de.. budden da security guard la... go lock da gates until 10 am... bloody... sho tis part of text is in bloody red.... budden lyke dry-up red hor??

yesterday skool was also bloody and freaking lor... we go skool early coz our hw wif amelia... (btw, we is me and yuling...we both sick on Thursday...) then got 1 maths de... sae muz hand in tt day... then we muz finish it up..bloody sey... then my head was lyke spinnin lyke siao lor... thenfeel sho tired.... sho uncomfortable da throat... freak sey... then got borin lesson.... MATHS... omg... *no offence 1... even though is quite borin....* dunnoe wad he say la... budden lucikly da IRP de is quite okay la... budden i need give da teacher 5 IRP de.. wad da...

Poems 6

2005-08-11T21:29:00.000+08:00

do euu noe tt da daes wifout u,

is hard to pass?

everytink had lost it's special tink...

da nite had lost it's stars,

da day had lost it's sun,

and i, had lost myself.

y is it sho?

where had i gone?

me, da gal hu is independent,

da gal hu is wilful,

da gal hu is stubborn.

i had changed.

completly changed.

it's not anyone to balme,

bud euu.

sigh

2005-08-11T20:54:00.000+08:00

i declare that my computer is currently under crazy mode... it can change it's screensaver by itself... wad da... i spent sho long on da screensaver and it changed itself.... and da icons' pic also can change itself de... wad da... dunnoe is kana by virus izit... *sigh* pathetic sey... if realli kana, then i muz save all my pics into mie de diskette... haha.... hope it's not realli kana... if not i also will kana...

fer euu...

2005-08-10T11:19:00.000+08:00

can euu juz stop it?

can euu juz stop showin us,

ur freakin attitude?

wad da matta wif euu?

wad do euu juz realli wan?

wad do euu treat us as?

frendz? i doubt sho.

if euu realli treat us as frend,

y dun euu trust us?

y dun euu listen 2 us?

we tried,

beri beri hard,

2 tok 2 euu,

2 b frendz wif euu,

bud wad?

euu show us ur attitude,

ur freakin attitude.

and wad do euu do,

wen euu r in need?

euu can do ALMOST everytink,

2 make us soft-hearted,

2 make us believe,

& help euu...

euu treat tis fer granted...

euu tink it's alrite...

budden have euu noe how we wld feel?

how hurt we wld b?

euu never ask and

euu never care.

and wad euu do,

wen we show our attitude 2 euu,

when we ignore euu?

euu asked & asked,

as if euu care,

as if euu wanted 2 noe,

as if euu treasure us as frendz...

once again,

we believe euu..

we believe again-

foolishly...

euu muz b laughin at us,

fer being sho stupid,

fer being sho foolish,

2 believe in euu...

bud, let me juz tell euu,

we noe bout euu long ago..

we noe tt,

bud we choose not 2 believe it,

tinkin u wld change,

bud, euu juz say

and say, and never did.

do euu noe,

ACTIONS SPEAKS LOUDER THAN WORDS?

we choose 2 trust euu,

bud wad we get back instead?

ur freakin attitude...

Bloody Dae sey..

2005-08-10T10:44:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was a bloody cum fun dae @ Marina South...

it was sho hot lor... and we were sweatin lyke siao lor... no matter how we fan still sho hot lor... then Natasha was sittin beside gin, then her bag was black and leather de.. wad da... her bag lyke burnin sey... can cook egg le... haha... then we were lyke no energy fer anytink lor then we were lyke sittin there doin NOTHING fer dunnoe how long lor...bloody sey...

when there's tink 2 do, it was handsigning... we were asked to handsign fer dunnoe 6 attempts b4 da real tinky?? then it was lyke sho sian lor... then still sho hot de... wad da... then when we handsign, got 1 wear sun-glass de were notin down dunnoe wad freak lor.. lyke we keep on do rong lyke tt... sia la...

half way through, diyanah sat down... coz she sick sick lyke tt... aiyah... sho hot de weather can no 1 sick sick meh?? Gin and I almost vomitted... sia la... i sick sey... early in da mornin then headach wanna vomit le... wad da... budden luickly no la... finally cannot tahan le... we go out and buy coolin cum refreshin water lor... wah.. coolin sey...

then not long lata, dunnoe when, da whole tinky started lor... we (Natasha, Gin, Shu Fen and me) were tokin lor... also dunnoe when start parade de... then goodies bag started to passed down... our goodies bag is um... quite nice de la.. then we had wad goodies check...

dinner, is far way betta then preview de... we had KFC 's shrooms burger and mashed potatoes... tink beri gd?? dun say 1st lor... da burger, no shrooms de... call shrooms burger... kiex....

Marina south was lyke... sho borin lor... we didn't go on live on TV lor... then it's lyke beri soon da emcees all gone lor... then motivators not motivated themselves... then wad we do was lyke lookin at da big screen all day long lor.. wad da

budden, our fireworks da best... sho nice sey

after fireworks, qiu ze come sing... dunnoe wad freak he singing la... da music was lyke sho loud lor... and he was sho pathetic lor.. no 1 cheer fer him... poor tink sey... we (Natasha, Shu Fen, Yee Gin, Me, Yuling) cheer fer him lor... then got sum ppl turn & look lor... we were lyke sho freaks... cheer fer him... sigh...

then we cannot c da Superstar de finalists lor... then we HAD to go.. coz da bloody bus came... then we were lyke wad?? Sho early sey... 9 sumthing only... bloody... then we reached skool at 10 sumtink lor... then teacher say they juz moved off... wad da..

pathetic sey...

2005-08-08T16:28:00.000+08:00

today, we go Mac... at 1st wanna wait fer 11 to come sho can eat fries... 10.30, we too hungry le.. sho we go 7 to buy cup noodles... lame rite? kiex.. then after buy le, we go playground eat... pathetic hor? then saw a kid... 5 yrs old onli... haha...then we go shake hand wif him... he shake... budden, dun wan shake wif gin... haha... then he laughed at gin... then gin kana rejected by him 2 b her bf... haha...

Pure Freaking Day Fer Mie...

2005-08-08T16:10:00.000+08:00

todae suppose to hab NDP de lor... budden dunnoe y, i when fall in, i suddenly cannot hear a single mini freakin sound lor... then got lyke bees in my ears buzzing her and there lyke tt... then i feel lyke vomitting... head giddy... then i squat down lor... then tik rachel c mie... then ask fer CSM 2 come... then i rest lor... drik wata.. i blur sey suddenly... then after minutes lata okay le la... bud still got headache lor... sho i can't join da parade... sho sad... :(... aisyah join fer me la... then Laura also be medic... dunnoe y ley... then we were waitin fer da parade to start... not long lata, SSC faint, NCC faint, NPCC faint, BB faint, GB faint, Band faint... wah sey... sho mani ppl fainted lor... wah.... coz mdm Lee la... stop stop stop.. bud not her fault la... is da pupils lor.. they dun wan listen 2 her message mah... then she muz stop 2 scold ppl lor...then cadets cannot tahan then faint lor.. cannot blame us sey... we reached at 6.45 sey... sho early... then it rained then sunny.. wah lau... bad weather sey... bud St John da best lor... sho stable, sho strong, no 1 fall out at da parade... we pro sey... kiex.. of coz la... we da best UG lor... then after this parade thingy, got mass signin de... kiex... damn little ppl lor... dunnoe y ley... then after mass signing, form border of da flag... then classes joined in... then saw him.... lyke happy sey him... kiex... enofuh.. then dancin and playin lyke siao... then we shouted st john fer 3 times... i tik... then lyke sho happy sey... then after tt got wad Mass signing emergency meet lor... aiyah... not emergency at all lor... then1Cs de is lyke waitin fer da Captain Ball match wif da P.E dep. lor... budden they say postpone.. wad da... sho freak lor... i cannot join in da parade and now wad?? no captain ball... freakin day sia....

Tired Of you, gal...

2005-08-08T15:40:00.000+08:00

gal, this is fer u de lor... i dun mean to offend u or wadeva freak la... i juz wanna to let u now how i feel... well, maybe her also lor...
u say we change, bud u got tik anot? change change change.... it's not lor... it's juz we r betta wif them lor.. cannot meh?? y muz we stuck wif da same old frendz?? we cannot choose hu we wanna b frend wif meh?? y muz u interfere?? y muz u?? we juz wanna hab frend more lor... then u... then u say we left u out... budden we didn't lor... well, maybe we did... budden it's not lyke we dun tok 2 u then we tok ourselves lor... it's not lor... it's tt we tok budden u dun wanna join in mah... lyke tok bout da 2 of them, u sumtimes dun wan... say wad dun say them.... coz she also lyke tt last time wif him... then we tok bout them, u dun join coz u not tt close to them... then wad we can say?? bout da same old frend meh?? we c them everydae le lor... then u still wanna tok bout them?? not sian ah?? then i juz wanna ask them wan stay in skool only ma... then wad?? u say i dun wan them go coz i not goin... then u?? she say she wanna stay in skool u also ask her to go mah... then i say u u bei song... then u say i cannot bei song.... wad freak??? then when we dun follow ur wish then u show us black face... wad da... we had enfuh of u le lor... we tired of pleasin u every now and then lor... we tired of being a clown in front of u lor... wad u wan us do?? y muz u interfere hu we frend wif? y muz u control our circle of frendz?? juz becoz u dun really noe them?? y muz u follow da crowd and not hab da mind of ur own?? y??? it's not us hu change lor... it's u urself lor... u always follow her... u always tik of her feelings onli lor... did u tik of mie de?? did u tik how i wuld feel wif all ur comments?? did u tik how wuld i feel be4??

My wishes fer now...

2005-08-07T16:19:00.000+08:00

kiex... this week... ppl tell me i had black eye rings le... wad da... kiex... i noe tt i beri beri beri in need of sleep and rest... work load in skool is lyke damn many lor.... maths... so-so... at least can understand a bit wad da hack cher say... english... okay also... habben been seeing Mdm Fazlin fer long time le.. saw her on Tuesday... tink she disappear again on Thurs... Mdm Fazlin, where u go? miss u sey... cannot study wifout u worx... keke... kiex... tt time tot u not teachin us le, our class lyke all go bonkers le... we even tot tt we go on strike if u no return... keke... then geo.... dunnoe y lor... geo lesson damn bo liao de... dunnoe wad hack cher say.. wad rain gauge... aiyah.. juz 3 words... i dunnoe!! then lit... dun say le lor... is lyke sho sian also... maybe is cauze it's fridae... then we all restless... but dun tink sho lor... tink is da cher lor... no interest in lit le.. science... never been gd... sho now also dunnoe how la.... k lorx... sum time i got listen attentively la... then sum noe wad tokin la... chinese, not much problem here la... budden, cher now also lyke miss lesson lorx... then we lyke miss da lesson nxt wk... then dunnoe if we behind time le or wad.... art, um... think is okay la... um... at least at A?? well, i dun expect it lor... now is dunnoe wad happen to me lor... sho tired everyday... then is lyke sho sick lyke tt... sho weak lyke tt... lyke yesterday... i sleep till 9.30am, then 12.30 sleep again, then wake up... then eat lunch then do hw... at nite still 10pm sleep... wah lau... i tt tired sey... all becauze of WORKLOAD lor...also dun wanna study... dun wanna eat.. juz wanna play lyke siao...budden also not realli wanna play lor... juz wannna be alone lyke tt, then dun tok lor... budden, if i dun tok, then will lyke sad sad lyke tt... then lata kwaiy and gin all lyke sad sad lyke tt... then is lyke i dunnoe la... sho tired lor... i sumtimes also felt tt i lyke clown lor... tryin 2 make every1 round me happy... then in da end i not happy meself... then is lyke sho tired of now de me lor... i dun wanna this me lor... i wanna da P6 me lor... da P6 me is betta lor... not afraid of ppl dun friend me lyke tt.. bud now hor, i lyke scared offend ppl sey.. sho lyke everything give in 2 them lor... i noe lyke beri lame and childish lor... budden, is true lor... wad i type here is not wad la... is not fer offendin ppl lor...

skool's de NDP...

2005-08-07T15:07:00.000+08:00

on da mondae... um.. is 8th August... KSS is habbing a NDP.... kiex... da Parade is lyke da real NDP de... principal is da president... teachers and staff da minsters... St John, NCC, NPCC, SSC, GB and BB are da supporting cotingents... kiex... i'm in da contigents... then got wad inspection lor... aiyah... almost lyke da real thingy at Padang de la... then after da parade, got Mass Signing... signing da theme song... Uniquely You... then after tt, da supporting contingents cme out again la... then da rest i dunnoe le...

Fer St John supporting contingents de:
We had gone through 3 parade le worx... da Zone Inspection, da St John dae and now da third 1 horx... is da NDP.. even though not real de, budden, muz work hard kiex? da whole skool lookin at us worx.... we da best UG ever de...

Fer Mass Signing Team de:
kiex... we had work hard fer 1 month le... i think... sho this is da last performance in front of public worx... the next day da real thingy le worx.... sho muz work hard kiex??

in da ITC rm fer bio's thingy...

2005-08-03T12:25:00.000+08:00

I'm now in da ITC rm... dunnoe which 1.. juz discover tt skool's keyboard is damn hard to type.... keke... kiex... juz finish da Gastric Pain thingy.... kiex.. juz wanna say no songf er da moment... coz da song damn loud scared sey... will get it back when i reach home and can toucha moi comp... kiex... think tonight??

Selling Kranji 10th Anniversary Tickets...

2005-08-02T20:42:00.000+08:00

Kiex.... Amelia is selling Kranji 10th anniversary tickets...

da price fer 1 ticket is $15. Two in her hand. da dansical is on 6th Aug 2005. Coming Soon. At NTU's Auditoruim (wadeva la... u noe where can le) ...

inform her if wan...

Gd experinces...

2005-07-31T17:20:00.000+08:00

Yesterday, was a beri goody-good dae fer me... at da morning, i got Air Rifle Course at CDANS... we first learn to shoot with the Rifle lying on the table of the range and shoot. We were allowed to shot a few more shots... me 1 shots got reach bull's eyes de side... wah... sho happy sey... after lying down, we were asked to stand up and shoot... (well, da correct thingy to do...) then, now i know how damn heavy da rifle is and how hard it is to get it up and aim... PERFECTLY.... haha.... well, da instructor had also said tt da rifle is about 4kg... omg.... after standin up, i was lyke not stable at all lor... it's was damn heavy... i was wonderin how aisyah could.... then it was sho difficult to aim... and i miss damn many shots.... boohoo..... then next da test... well, at least test betta.... didn't miss any shots.... budden, still not stable yet.... da test is bout whether we can get 5 shots together.... and i pass la... then we russ back 2 skool coz of da mass signin thingy.... and we reached skool at 12.59.... no lunch... luciky i bought time out eat le... or else i sure die de.... haha.... okay.... we assemble.... then we board bus la... i was damn tired lor... sho i sleep la... beri smooth sleep... haha... when we reached it was drizzlin.... damn wet and cold fer me coz i juz wake.... then we got walk grass.. omg... da water all splashed up and make da shoe wet.... yucks....then we were waitin fer our bread 2 come... i and gin ate 3 1/2 bread.... we share da 4th 1... we were damn hungry... haha.... then we were damn enthu into da whole thing lor... we were singin and singin.... and we played lyke siao... lyke p5 de NE show... haha... okay... is damn fun fer da whole thingy.... air rifle also...

today, wake up, my both arm hurts.... still can raise... budden after my nap, i can't even raise my left arm... if i do, it will hurt... ouch!!

word we women uses...

2005-07-28T21:05:00.000+08:00

FINE
This is the word women use to end an argument when they feel they are right and you need to shut up. Never use fine to describe how a woman looks this will cause you to have one of those arguments.
FIVE MINUTEST
his is half an hour. It is equivalent to the five minutes that your football game is going to last before you take out the trash, so its an even trade.
NOTHING
This means something, and you should be on your toes. Nothing is usually used to describe the feeling a woman has of wanting to turn you inside out, upside down, and backwards. Nothing usually signifies anargument that will last Five Minutes and end with Fine.
GO AHEAD (With Raised Eyebrows)
This is a dare. One that will result in a woman getting upset over Nothing and will end with the word Fine.
GO AHEAD (Normal Eyebrows)
This means I give up or do what you want because I dont care You will get a Raised Eyebrow Go Ahead in just a few minutes, followed by Nothing and Fine and she will talk to you in about Five Minutes when she cools off.
LOUD SIGH
This is not actually a word, but is a non-verbal statement often misunderstood by men. A Loud Sigh means she thinks you are an idiot at that moment, and wonders why she is wasting her time standing here and arguing with you over Nothing.
SOFT SIGH
Again, not a word, but a non-verbal statement. Soft Sighs mean that she is content. Your best bet is to not move or breathe, and she will stay content.
THATS OKAY
This is one of the most dangerous statements that a woman can make to a man. Thats Okay means that she wants to think long and hard before paying you back for whatever it is that you have done. Thats Okay is often used with the word Fine and in conjunction with a Raised Eyebrow.
GO AHEAD.
At some point in the near future, you are going to be in some mighty big trouble.
PLEASE DO
This is not a statement, it is an offer. A woman is giving you the chance to come up with whatever excuse or reason you have for doing whatever it is that you have done. You have a fair chance with the truth, so be carefuland you shouldnt get a Thats Okay.
THANKS
A woman is thanking you. Do not faint. Just say youre welcome.
THANKS A LOT
This is much different from Thanks. A woman will say, Thanks A Lot when she is really ticked off at you. It signifies that you have offended her in some callous way, and will be followed by the Loud Sigh. Be careful not to ask what is wrong after the Loud Sigh, as she will only tell you Nothing.

i need euu

2005-07-28T21:02:00.000+08:00

my fwen ii need euu now-

pls take miie by derr hand.

stand by miie iin moii hour ob need,

take tyme tuhh underrstand.

take moii hand, dear fwen,n lead miie from tiis place.

chase away moii doubts n fears,wipe derr tears off from moii face.

fwen, ii cannot stand alone.i

i niid eur hand tuhh hold,

derr warmth ob eur gentle touchin moii world tats grown cold.

pls b a fwen tuhh miien hold miie dae by dae,

bcoz wiif eur luviin hand iin miine,ii noe we'll find derr way..

Yuki...

2005-07-28T20:48:00.000+08:00

Today we went 2 gin's house fer da chinese project thingy... yen teng go also... coz no 1 stay in skool... she lonely sia... then we wen 2 take LRT... okay... we r da noisiest group lor... wen reach gin's house, Yuki, her doggie was not lock... then wen reach da dog bark lyke siao... we sho scared sey... scare bite us... then finally, da dog lock up... at da balcony... sho poor thingy.... after da lunch, we let da dog smell me and cindy... budden, yen teng was sho scared lor... then when we let da dog out, she was screamin lyke siao... she ran 2 da balcony and lock herself there... her hand still got Sarsi lor... then she scared until she spill Sarsi all over.... wah lau... spill me sey... okay... then we laughed lyke siao lor... she damn scared lor... then Yuki lyke frightened by her le... haha.... then poor Yuki... wanna let Yuki smell Yen Teng budden she scared... sho we had 2 cover Yuki's eyes.... haha.... but still cannot... she still damn scared.... haha... then we bring da dog into da rm... Yen Teng scared until dun dare move.... haha... okay...tt's da end of our funni day...

I'm sho tired... give me a break...

2005-07-27T21:00:00.000+08:00

I've lost my smile,

slowly.

I've lost my stubborness,

slowly.

I've lost my courage,

slowly.

I've lost everything,

slowly,

when you all ask me to change.

Have you all really know how I feel?

How sad I am,

not to be myself in front of you?

I'm just like a person wearing a mask,

a beautifully decorated mask.

You all doesn't know anything.

How I feel,

how much i need care,

and, how much i need an encouragement,

saying that it's alright.

saying that nothing is wrong.

You never know,

you never will.

All you want is me to change.

If i change,

what will be left for me?

for the one and only me?

nothing.

i'll lost my smile, my stubborness, my activeness,

and everything else.

But, you never know how i feel,

all you know is to ask me to change.

I'm so sick and tired of changing,

leave me alone.

just leave me.

i'm not prepared for a new change.

i'm not.

i need a break,

so, just leave me alone....

Why?

2005-07-26T17:47:00.000+08:00

why act?

when you hate me?

why talk?

when you dislike me?

why can't you just say?

and ask me to change?

why can't you just tell me?

why must you do all this?

why must you act,

as you doesn' know it?

i treat you all as friends,

and i know you don't.

but why,

act and talk,

as if it's not?

it's hurtful,

to know the truth,

from someone else,

and not you.

just say,

when you want.

and i promise to leave you alone.

i will....

I'm sho sick!!!

2005-07-24T11:33:00.000+08:00

dunnoe wad happen.... yesterday reached home then feelin sick le.... well, not actually when reached home la.... is on da way home.... feelin sho sick and tired.... sho decided not to go to Northvale fer BBQ.... big scarific de.... okay... then when on da bus, i sho tired tt i sleep..... haha... luckily didn't miss stop.... okay... coz it's quite 'cosy' de.... got air-con cum rain.... well, it suddenly rain.... beri beri big..... then at my bus-stop, i no umbrella, sho i go and drenched lor.... budden, i got go home and wash head la... budden, now still headache.... then is lyke sho tired.... and sick.... nose still runnin lyke siao.... then head pain lyke siao also... but still an type sho many thingys.... keke.... k le... i tired le... i go le... and sleep... haha....

The broken trust...

2005-07-23T16:37:00.000+08:00

We were once close buddies,

talking and playing like there's no end.

We trusted you and trusted you,

but what you do?

You treat this trust for granted,

you take us for granted.

We helped you and believed you,

but, this is what we get from you.

You broke our friendship yourself,

just as soon as we know the truth.

We couldn't believe it,

you, a innocent little girl.

You acted and acted,

as if it's true.

You don't know that we,

had know the truth.

Thw wall, was built by you,

brick by brick.

If you wanted to tear this down,

you have to gain back the broken trust.

Thr broken rubber band...

2005-07-23T16:34:00.000+08:00

I trusted you,

I believed you,

thinking that you would take care of her.

I helped you,

and helped you,

thinking that things you could do to gain her.

You were so good before,

caring and understanding.

But now,

you said you are just pure shy,

and doesn't dare to talk.

Please, stop giving excuses,

saying you can't face her.

It's just you,

your high ego,

stopping you to talk.

At last, the truth is out,

but, you two had stopped talking.

Is it good or is it bad?

But I know she's feeling sad.

She wanted to patch,

but you don't.

What should I do,

to help you out?

I don't know.

I only know,

that this broken rubber band,

is hard to stick back.

for u 2....

2005-07-23T16:30:00.000+08:00

Everything had changed,
Since the semester started.
It's not about what,
It's just about us.
We had minor misunderstanding,
Which lead to huge quarrels.
And now, it’s all useless,
To tell you all this truth.
I wanted to say,
Just wanted to say,
How much I care,
How I feel.
But, will the truth change anything?
Or will it?
I'm not sure.
And I don't have the courage too.
To tell you.
I'd changed,
That's what everyone told me.
And I believed it,
I changed.
I've lost my willfulness,
My courage,
My stubbornness.
All because of you.
You make me depend on you,
You make me change just for you.
My willfulness and stubbornness are tamed by you,
My courage are all stolen by you,
Accidentally.
It's what had happened,
When you pampered me too much.
When you care,
When you protect.
I've started to depend on you.
And I’ve started to think that,
It’s great.
But, things changed slowly.
Where were you?
When I needed you the most.
Where were you?
When I'm lonely,
And wanted someone to talk.
Where were you?
When I'm hurt terribly,
And when I just need someone to be there?
You are never there,
You never were.
And it was him,
Who was there,
Replacing you,
To talk to me.
He was much caring,
Much more better than you.
But, I still convinced myself,
At least, your heart, still have me.
Not long later, you changed totally.
Not five sentences,
And a bad word from your mouth is out.
You changed,
From the caring boy,
To a rude boy.
What had caused the changed?
Can you just tell me?
You had asked for a break.
You say we can't go on.
And I know myself,
It's hard to continue,
With you all changed.
I agreed, and we went separate ways.
From then on, we never talk,
We never smile,
And we never joked.
I regretted,
Not telling you how much I need you,
How much I care for you.
But now, it's of no use,
You had gone.
What can I do,
To get you back?

Will you come back?

2005-07-23T16:28:00.000+08:00

You make me depend on you,
Thinking that you will always be by my side,
Thinking that you will shine my road bright.
You are just like the sun.
You make me laugh and you make me relaxed,
You make me feel, as if nothing is impossible.
I thought, we would always be like that,
So, I didn't tell you how I feel,
How much I need you.
I thought you would never leave me,
But I'm wrong.
One day,
You said.
You wanted to leave,
And see,
The beautiful world.
No matter how I asked,
How I say,
You just wouldn’t stay.
I just wanted to ask,
Have you care?
Have you just ask how I feel,
And how will the life be without you?
You never did.
And now, I had to face this cruel truth myself,
I had to get used to the life without you.
It will be easy,
Wouldn’t it be?
Will you stay by my side?
Will you come back again?
Or will you just leave forever,
And seems we're never friends?What will you do?
It's hard to say,
It's hard to predict.
But I will be strong,
And I know,
You can come back,
When you want,
When you are tired.
When you want everything back.
And I promise you,
You will find back the strong girl,
That you love,
That you care.
And I will always be there,
Waiting for you,
Just like you did before.

freakin day

2005-07-21T21:02:00.000+08:00

Okay... tooday is a freakin day fer mie.... 1st, we need 2 change out of skool shirt into SJ's zone shirt.... then we r lyke rushin mad fer time lor.... coz we need 2 reach St John's HQ's Lecture Rm by 3.30 pm (which is at Lavender MRT wif a long walk from there) ... then we tooday 2.15 then go.... sho rush.... then when we walked out, we saw yong ting's dad.... then he say he drive us there, sho we can hab time 2 eat lunch, or else we surely die of hunger de.... okay, then we didn't expect da guys 2 eat sho fast, then they go rush us.... then we didn't finish our food... damn it.... okay nvm.... then when we r on da car, we r lyke sho noisy lor.... we tok and tok.... then when we r reachin da complex, we saw 1D walkin 2 complex.... is lyke no 1 saw us.... sho pathetic... then when da traffic light change and time fer da car to move, Joaquim dashed cross road... then he was lyke damn close to da car lor, he's juz right infront of amelia... hope he saw us, if not, he's realli blind.... coz we wearin bright yellow shirt and is juz right infront of him lor... enough of him le... then we reached HQ at bout 3 sumthing... not a single soul out there... okay... there is, in da rm...then we waited and waited, finally da briefin started.... at last... da toker, told us bout wad we shld wear, wad is our checkpoints, and rules and regulations de... then finally, our groupings.... there's when me and amelia get damn angry.... first, amelia is seperated wif us.... she wif dunnoe which 2 SJ de.... okay.... group 86.... next, da 3 guys... guess wad??? they not seperated lor!!1 they in da same group de..... not fair lor!!!! okay... tt makes me by myself.... then at last, my name appear and wad?? i'm da only SJ in da group lor.... wif Scouts and NCC!!! wad da freak.... then da NHT's shirt.... we go by zone de lor... and we r lyke damn back lor... coz we zone 10 de then sho long... then when it's our turn, da 'S' size de shirt all finish le... sho me and amelia both get 'M' which is damn big fer her.... okay... mie is alright... thinkin tt we r gonna wear this big shirt to Northvale after NHT, we were lyke... oh mi gosh.... okay... then after tt, we walked 2 lavender MRT... on da way, we go bully guys... haha... coz they dunnoe how walked back... sho we lie 2 them tt it's da other way.... haha.... okay... finally we tell truth le... then da next time we lie them, they dun believe us.. coz once bitten, twice shy ma... haha... okay, after tt, we went Lot 1 2 buy present fer Jing Ying, coz we goin her house on Saturday fer BBQ..... then we went home... when reached homw is 6 sumthing le... sho tired.... k... tt's all my freaking day....

wadda.......

2005-07-20T16:57:00.000+08:00

OMG!!!!!!!!! SHE'S SHO......... SHE ONCE SUSPECTED TT **** ** LIKE HER!!!!!!!!!!!!! AND SHE EVEN LIKE *** ***** BEFORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OKAY.... DOESN'T MEAN ANYTHINGY HURTFUL KIEX.... I MEAN, PPL HAD DA RITE 2 LIKE PPL DE LA.... BUDDEN, SHE HAD LIKE 3 GUYS IN DA YEAR!!!!! OH MI GOSH!!!!!!!!!!! SHE SAYS IS ALL HISTORY LE... BUDDEN, WE 'BATTLE' WIF HER 2 ALLOW US C HER DIARY..... HAHA.... AND AT LAST, OF COZ WE WON LA!! (3 AGAINST 1, CAN WE LOSE?!) AND WE SAW HER DIARY, AND C ALL SHE HAD WRITTEN, SINCE 04 YEAR DE..... OKAY.... WE DIDN'T MEANT 2 'STEAL HER PRIVACY' LA.... IT JUZ 'TIAN DE FATE' LOR..... GIN WALK PAST HER COMPUTER..... THEN HER EYES SAW *** *****'S NAME LOR.... ONLY LOR!!!!!!!!!! THEN SHE ASK ASK ASK... THEN FINALLY WE BATTLE OUT DA DISC..... THEN WE LYKE PLAYING HIDE-AND-SEEK AS SHE IS CHASING FER HER DISC..... HAHA.... THEN WE DUN GIVE HER..... THEN WE R PRATICALLY RUNNIN ROUND DA COMPUTER LAB.... HAHA... WHEN SHE IS ABOUT 2 CHATCH US, WE PASS 2 SUM1 ELSE. FINALLY, SHE GIVES IN AND WE CAN LOOK AT DA DIARY!!!! NOT 'TOU TOU MO MO' DE.... IS 'GFUANG MING ZHENG DA' DE.... WAH..... 1ST TIME SEY, CAN LOOK AT PPL'S PRIVACY AT EASE!!! DUNNEED SCARED SCARED DE... HAHA.....

PS: DA PERSON ABOVE IS NOT AMELIA TSAN XIU YU LAI DE.... GIVE U CLUE...

1ST: A GIRL
2ND: OUR FREND
3RD: OUR CLASS
4TH: DATIN WIF *** *** ****
5TH: OUR CLASS DE ****.....
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[amelia tsan...LASTEST update ...on da gal n *** ****]
Both of them are at da cantten for a long long time le...i tink he going wat for her to go home...he is lik goin to wait until 6PM lor...(he started waiting at 3 pm...)Its been 20 min since she went to da canteen.....

How much I'm worth?

2005-07-18T21:41:00.000+08:00

Oh mi gosh!!! $1,542,000??? Is pathetic or wad??

I am worth $1,542,000 on HumanForSale.com

Um...

2005-07-18T21:27:00.000+08:00

Okay... read thier blog... um... dunnoe whether they seen my blog le... guess Shufen did... coz she got post.... well, nvm...

APpoloGizeS...

2005-07-17T19:29:00.000+08:00

guess that lot ppl will come my blog and hab a look.. sho might as well blog now.... um... yea... let's start la...

First, I wouldn't hate da 2 of u after this thingy... although we can hardly b frends.... (but there's still a 0.000000000000000000000000000000000000001% :P) miracles do happen... but not often.... also dunnoe wad thingy i tokin.... k.... ignore this....

Second, I'm willin 2 stop this fightin....

Third, I didn't spread da rumour bout Shufen and Weisheng.... neither did gin... well, dunnoe hu had said it... but guess tt person is tryin 2 do sumthing?

Fourth, I'm sorry fer being sho hurtful and blunt fer mie previous posts.... i'm juz.... well, can say tt cannot stand ppl diaoin mie frends fer no reason... sho.... hope u noe wad i mean la...

Fifth, bout da diaoin thingy, maybe is gin c wrongly or wad la... and i also wrong to blame u 2 without seein this thingy with my own eyes la... but gin also didn't diao u 2....

Sixth, Promise that on monday i will not lose my temper la... i will not argue with someone... promise...

Seventh, I not tryin 2 stop u 2 and ur gorgors 2 b 2 gether la.... dun get it wrong hor....

Eighth, i not trying to be mean or wad on my posts and taggies.... juz a moment of anger....

Nineth, Really sho sorry fer wad had happen la... sorry if this fight had caused anyone 2 be hurt in sumway or another...

Tenth, i know it's not bout sayin sorry 2 hu or hu's fault... but i think i can only say sorry .....

Poem 4

2005-07-17T15:22:00.000+08:00

In your eyes,

who are we?

a rumor spreader?

a group of people,

who are irritating?

I can't believe it,

this is how u think.

to trust that you had known us,

like a zillion years ago.

We used to be that close,

we used to be friends.

we used to talked forever,

like there is no end.

But now, we had just 'quarrel'

over this thing.

it's not partly our fault,

nor either theirs.

What more do you want us to do?

we had apologized,

right here on our blogs.

So let's have a small talk,

right there in school.

I promise you to control my temper,

as long as I could.

My Personality Disorder

2005-07-17T15:19:00.000+08:00

Your mood swings make a roller coaster look tame!When you're up, you're a little bit crazy...And when you're down, your whole world is crashingScary thing is, these moods can change by the minute!

My Rising Sign

2005-07-17T14:56:00.000+08:00

Taurus...

You are the ultimate rock - stable and centered.
People turn to you in crisis and count on you for calm.
Stubborn and strong minded, you can't be pushed around.
You are also tenacious, and you always will stick with something difficult.
A bit fan of nature, you're attracted to the beauty of the outdoors.
And sometimes, you find it easier to relate to animals than people.

My Japanese Name

2005-07-17T14:33:00.000+08:00

"Suzuki Minase"

I WILL NOT

2005-07-17T14:28:00.000+08:00

I juz wanna say something here...

"I WILL NEVER HIT ANYBODY NO MATTER HOW ANGRY I AM WITH THE PERSON.... "

sniff.....

2005-07-16T11:17:00.000+08:00

*sniff*... ergg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i'm suffering frm a severe flu.... and cough.... *cough*..... sho xing ku..... :( sho tired also... boohoo.... ergg!!!!!!!!

MisUndErrSttAndiiNg

2005-07-16T11:08:00.000+08:00

Juz read her blog.. well, juz wanna say.. wad u tryin 2 do? makin us feel guilty? okay... MAYBE we are really too much... and i'm not tryin 2 mean k? 'Freaks' is juz a word tt i used to describe a person i dislike k? most ppl i noe noe tt i used this word damn often....not ANYTHING else k? sho get it rite 1st... dun i have da rite 2 used a word 2 describe ppl i dislike??

Did we say u 2 r flirts? Well, i DON"T think so.... sho dun anyhow say we did say k? We DIDN'T go round spreadin rumors bout sf and ws k? dun anyhow say..... we juz talked among ourselves.... dun tell me we dun have da freedom 2 talk? and beside, we r NOT talkin bout u 2 lor... it's juz tt gin is askin us wad she shld do IF sf and ws stead ONLY ma....

maybe u 2 really didn't diao gin... maybe is to sumone NEAR her... wadeva u wanna say lor... but gin didn't diao u 2 lor.... well, and da thingy on being short, i admit tt there r advantages and disavantages la... being tall also la... k la... here say sorry lor....

being frendx wif u 2 ah?? um... is 0.0000000000000000000000001% success de lor... (sorry fer being sho blunt k?) realli... impossible de....

Jun Chi, hope u noe tt it's juz a dare.... hope tt gin didn't hurt ur feelings la.... gin sho scared tt u dun dare face her.... then cannot be frends.... and nelson, i dunnoe wad 2 say le.... is... um.... is lyke wad gin's blog say lor.... scare me sey....

Okay.... conclusion is tt, maybe a beri beri big de misunderstandin lor... and no offence fer wad written la... is all how i feel de ma... but sorry if offended anyone la...

We've wronged u

2005-07-14T21:29:00.000+08:00

I'm so sorry,

my dear friend.

i couldn't believe all this,

that i don't trust u at all.

I'm really sorry,

sorry for not listening to u,

ur point of views,

ur part of story.

I had believed her,

and spoiled our friendship totally.

luckily we had a nice talk,

and we had find out da truth.

But, what should we do now?

since we know the truth?

should we just ask her?

or should we just leave it?

I don't know....

everything is happening...

friendship, relationship, studies...

i don't know...

2 freaks

2005-07-14T20:31:00.000+08:00

Okay.... there was two freaks yesterday.... girl freaks..... from other class de... they go and diaox yee gin.... wad the freak.... got eyes problem izit? or u just got nothing better 2 do? gin had done nothing to you okay? u 2 freaks just diaox her cause of him.... dunnoe wad hack he had said again... muz find out from him le!!! it's lyke ppl did nothing lor... then u 2 just diaox her.... eye sight got problem then go check la... dun anihow diaox ppl... coz it's irritatin....

An annoucement from Amelia...

2005-07-14T20:19:00.000+08:00

THIS IS AN ANNOUCEMENT FROM AMELIA TSAN XIU YU OF CLASS 1C.... SHE WANTS TO TELL THE WHOLE WORLD THAT SHE HATES LOAU XUAN YU FOR LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Poem 3

2005-07-10T21:17:00.000+08:00

When you are lonely,

just remember this:

Somewhere in this place,

there is someone,

who will be thinking of you,

someone,

who dreams of your smile.

And will be thinking

that life with your presence,

are worth while.

Friends

2005-07-10T13:03:00.000+08:00

We were once,

a very close pair.

we laughed, we played

and we talked as if there's no tomorrow.

You are always there,

when i need you.

when i need someone,

to know my troubles.

But i can't believe it,

when they say who u really are.

i tried to convice myself,

i tired to persuade myself,

not to believe them,

but you, my once true friend.

But, the next day,

you told him how you feel.

that makes him say me something bad.

From then on,

i believed them.

i'm with them,

at the same side.

We changed.

we had done everything,

everything to make us strangers.

I graudually dislike you,

really, very much.

most of them persuaded me,

to let our friendship be back again.

But, i can't.

you had broke the trust.

and it's not just a normal trust.

it's a very big trust.

And the hurt you had created in me,

is a very deep hurt.

it's not easily cure,

or maybe, never cure.

Just leave me alone,

don't show me your face,

your pathetic face.

It makes my blood boil...

and if you just go away,

maybe, it's good for both of us.

Poem 2

2005-07-10T12:49:00.000+08:00

I should have cherish you at the first place.

i should had let you know,

how i feel,

how much i need you.

If i had done so,

it wouldn't happen in this way now,

or will it still be?

Tell me, what should i do,

to let you stay by my side?

Even if you know how i feel,

will you just hate me and just leave?

I don't know.

my moods,

my feelings,

had all changed.

when you left.

Now, what can i do?

nothing.

i can do nothing.

i can only watch you leave me slowly...

NOTHING

2005-07-10T12:10:00.000+08:00

um.. nothing at all la... just checkin mail then come cross this word... i mean phrase...

Love is like a butterfly...

the more you chase it,

the more it elude you.

But if you let it fly,

it will just come to you,

when you least expected it.

meaningful ah?? haha...

RUSH!!

2005-07-09T19:49:00.000+08:00

things r happening very fast and well, sort of a funny way... and i MEANT it!!! It's happening damn fast!!! First, ge dou tian wang is showing on SCV... sho goody-good... 31st July 7pm. Second, C**** and R** Y**** is together... well, both denied everything no i MEANT it!!! EVERYTHING!!! Just want to tell them... even though both had 0% to c my blog... and i MEANT it!! ZERO k??? it's pretty obvious tt they 2 of u r together... it's lyke... u 2 is blushin red lor.... then u still denied EVERYTHING!!! and we ask coz we care bout u, girl.... but wad u reply?? dun care?? wah lau... u very wad le... we ur frends le... then u lyke tt?? then we dun care u cry adn say we dun care bout u... wad the freakin thing this is????

Poem

2005-07-09T19:36:00.000+08:00

You make me depend on you,

thinking that you will always be by my side,

whenever i need you.

You are just like a sun,

shining my road bright.

shining my bad days away,

turning them from bad to good.

But now, you say you wanted to leave me.

you wanted to go, and explore.

no matter what I say,

you just don't want to stay.

What about me?

i had to get used to the life without you.

it will be easy,

wouldn't it be?

Will you still stay by my side?

will u come back again?

or will u just leave forever

and just seems, i don't know you?

What will you do?

it's hard to say.

But i know,

you can come back,

when you are tired.

And, I will always be there,

just like you did before.

The End Of The World

2005-07-09T19:15:00.000+08:00

Why does the sun go on shining

Why does the sea rush to shore

Don't they know it's the end of the world

'Cause you don't love me any more

Why do the birds go on singing

Why do the stars glow above

Don't they know it's the end of the world

It ended when I lost your love

I wake up in the morning and I wonder

Why everything's the same as it was

I can't understand, no, I can't understand

How life goes on the way it does

Why does my heart go on beating

Why do these eyes of mine cry

Don't they know it's the end of the world

It ended when you said goodbye

Why does my heart go on beating

Why do these eyes of mine cry

Don't they know it's the end of the world

It ended when you said goodbye

We are back to friends again

2005-07-03T21:25:00.000+08:00

At last, the war had slowly stopped... we are back to friends again. But, I'm sorry to say that I still couldn't forgive her. She had really break the trust I had for her before. But, don't worry. We will still be friends lyke last time and play lyke siao... haha.... and really sorry if i ever hurt ur feelings with all the scoldings i had scolded u... haha....

St John's 70th anniversary

2005-07-02T22:15:00.000+08:00

Today st john de 70th anniversary dae.... got carnival cum open house... muz wake up early again... not enough sleep le.... die die.... tired la...kss got booth lex.... then we go there support them... then we also help them out la.... then quite fun la... we won da zone's best decorate food stall.... sho shiok man.... then at 3pm we go home.... on way 2 MRT we lyke siao le.... amelia, may, aiysha and me laugh laugh laugh... then MRT come le... then may dun wan go in coz many ppl... amelia accompany her lor.... then i and aisyah go in... then decide to wait fer them at Jurong East... then i and aiysha sleep on MRT coz too tired liaox..... then at Jurong East da train 2 Yew Tee come le... then decided dun wait coz they still at Dover.... after tt, I and Aiysha go Lot 1 to eat... then we go home beri tired.... haha

St John Day...

2005-07-01T21:55:00.000+08:00

Wah... todae is st john dae lai de... wif NCC also dex.... muz wake up early go skool and wait fer da parade start... sho hot sia.... luckily at sec 5 there.... no ren shi de ppl... sho not pai sey.... and also in da middle dex..... at last le... in middle liao.... keke.... then we stand there fer sho long.... then after tt, we go foyer to take fotos.... then after tt, we go back st john's rm take baggie.... sho bad dex.... cannot carry baggie... muz hug it.... dunnoe y la.... then baggie sho heavy, wan die le la.... then reach class le.... then frewns c lor.... then recess le... walk out building, forget wear beret....keke... luckily ppl remind me.... keke... after recess still need to stand behind wait fer classes 2 go... wad the.... nvm.... then went back class.... then lesson started lor... then nothing special le....

St John day tomorrow....

2005-06-30T20:09:00.000+08:00

WOW!! st john day tomorrow sho excited.... but muz fall in wif full u at 6.15.... wahha... sho early..... then worst....i scared lata wrong then pai seh lex.... then still wif NCC de.... wad da... nvr mind.... muz work betta then them... muz rulez tomorrow!!! ST JOHN ROCKZ!!!!

ANDIKA IS BACK!!!

2005-06-30T20:03:00.000+08:00

ANDIKA IS BACK WIF US AGAIN!!! WE R SHO DAMN HAPPY 2 HAVE HIM BACK... WELCOME BACK!!!

Pathetic man....

2005-06-28T21:48:00.000+08:00

wow! today a very high day... 1st, we noe geography teacher le... we also change chinese teacher le... sittin arrangement also changed le.... wah... sho shiok.... sit wif gin again!!! 2nd, WS thingy... scolded him rite in da canteen durin recess.... now lots ppl noe le..... even senior also noe.... pai seh man..then next, is da problem.... well, havent realli scolded her la..... juz ignore her and attitude her lor..... then is lyke WS bu shuang me le.... lyke i care lyke tt.... but dunnoe y.... even wad had hapen, i also not sad or angry ley.... onli go da class onli angry..... haha.... bad fengshui man.... haha.... high lor... today.... then we got swimmin lesson.... sho shoik and fun... c han guo there.... dun need c da class le... haha.... then after swimmin lots ppl stay back and continue swimmin.... got rui yang, yang qi, raj, xuan yu, yee gin, cindy, me, amelia, yen teng, yuling..... then we swim... after gin go home, we go play slide fer N times... sho shiok.... then go home le.... then forget bring keys... cannot go in... muz wait fer parents.... sho sian... need go le.... i tired le... muz sleep....

FREAKING FAKER!!!

2005-06-27T17:59:00.000+08:00

WHY R U DOIN ALL THIS? DO U STILL TREAT ME AS FREND? IF YES, TT'S NOT WAD U SHLD DO! EVEN IF U HATE ME TOTALLY, JUZ SAY! Y DO U SAY ALL THIS THINGS IN FRONT OF YEE GIN, CINDY AND ALICE RITE? AND I WILL NEVER KNOW WAD U SAY BEHIND ME UNTIL TODAY! AND TO THINK TT I TRUSTED U SO MUCH BE4 AND HELP U TO BE FRENDS WIF YEE GIN!!! I HAD DONE IT SO WRONG!! AND AFTER TODAY, UR POOR, KIND, HELPLESS LITTLE GAL IMAGE WILL BE ALL GONE!!! I WILL NEVER TRUST U AGAIN! AND U R SO FAKE!!! BEING A NICE LITTLE GAL IN FRONT OF ME AND ACT HELPLESS SO TT I SYMPATHY U?? WAD BUULSHIT!!! AND NOW, U DUN NEED TO NOE ANYTHING. JUZ NOE TT UR STUPID FAKING HAD MADE US MAD AND NOW, WE ALREADY NOE WAD U HAD DONE OR SAY BEHIND OUR BACK. AND STOP BEING SUCH A 'NICE' FREND! I DON'T NEED A FAKER! AND JUZ TELL U SUMTHING. FAKER S***S TILL DA CORE TERRIBLY AND WILL MAKE PPL HATE THE SERIOUSLY!!!! AND PLEASE! IF U WAN TO MAKE PPL LIKE U, JUZ SAY. DON'T NEED TO ACT !! AND DON'T BLAME ANYONE IF U REALLY LOST ANY FRENDS.... IT'S WAD U GET 4 WAD U DO.

I survive!

2005-06-23T21:03:00.000+08:00

Wow! Today i gave da edusave form to Mr Kong.... and sho suprised... he didn't scold me at all! Wow!

da posts

2005-06-22T14:22:00.000+08:00

da recent's post is made by Amelia Tsan Xiu Yu, Class 1C de yi zi.....u noe... chair... and is mad de... haha.... she angry tt da skool's comp veri lan... veri slow also cannot okay... lan de... haha...

Back in da skool's ITC rm....

2005-06-22T14:17:00.000+08:00

back in da skool's ITC 5...so pathetic...so mani computer cannot use....stupid ah......still waiting for da PA to come....so de slow....so pathetic......

FREAK !!!!!!!!!!!!! I HAVENT PASS UP EDUSAVE FORM!!!!!!!!!!! DIE LE

2005-06-21T21:16:00.000+08:00

WAHAA...... I HAVENT PASS UP DA EDUSAVE FORM FER DA SWIMMING PROGRAMME!!!!!!!! WAD THE... DIE LE.... DUN DARE GO AND PASS UP..... WAHAAA.... BUT AT LEAST CINDY PROMISED ME TO GO WIF ME TO PASS UP DA FORM.... LUCKY MAN..... THEN I CUT HAIR LE... LYKE.... OKAY.... FAMILY MEMBERS SAY NICE... DUNNOE HOW CLASSMATE WILL REACT... HAHA

I redo da music!!

2005-06-20T13:42:00.000+08:00

I redo da music le!! Now u can choose da music 2 hear.... but i think still cannot use... i also dunnoe y.... keke..... still under construction....

Wow!!!

2005-06-19T17:00:00.000+08:00

Wow!!! I had almost redo my blog!!! Well, I didn't change da template (as it is beri nice even though it is sho plain)... I only change da contents.... I changed my profiles.... and i added archives.... and 2 more important thingys....

~~I changed the popout windows to become lesser.... coz i find it quite fan.... keke

~~I added music!!! It is Ocean Ou De Yang's Xiu Xiu Xiu... 1st album de.... quite nice de... actually put 5566's without ur love.... but hor... quite short de... compared to Xiu Xiu Xiu... then need to play lots time... then hear le sho fan... haha... hope u all like it la.... give feedback on da tagboard hor?

Haha....

2005-06-19T15:27:00.000+08:00

Haha.... fer those who had come to my blog le, has discovered tt when u come my blog got lots of lyke popout windows hor? Haha... dunnoe u all think veri fan anot.... but then hor... quite fun la.... haha....

ERGG!!!!!!!!!!!

2005-06-18T11:58:00.000+08:00

Help !!!!!!!!!!!!! hu noe how 2 add music 2 da blog??!! I'm goin bonkers le.... i wanna add music !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

MAD?!

2005-06-15T21:30:00.000+08:00

HOW IS EVERYONE? MAD!? WELL... I THINK TT'S DA ANSWER I GET FRM WS, KWAIY AND WANTING.... KEKE... THEY HAD A GANG CALLED MADAGANG.... WANTING STARTED IT.... DUNNOE Y... COZ SHE MAD LE??!! HAHA... JKJK.. DUN TAKE IT SO SERIOUSLY K? :) SORRY FER USING CAPTIALS COZ I PLAYIN SORT OF HANGMAN... MUZ USE CAPTIAL.... LAZY CHANGE.... BYE

Sian Diao Le

2005-06-15T17:56:00.000+08:00

I so sian.... da stupid msn messenger la.... i wan play games... then there got da games tab then cannot use de.... --" then i cannot play games wif Kwaiy le.... then now i so sian.... stupid le....

Very quiet hor?

2005-06-13T11:21:00.000+08:00

Well Well.... juz discovered tt my blog very quiet leh... muz add songs liao.....

So Tired

2005-06-12T21:24:00.000+08:00

Juz return home from Bedok (for St John Ambulance Bridage' Zone 10 Inspection) ,had moi dinner and bath........ now then can come online..... so tired le.... first we wear 1/4 u (St John's Zone t-shirt, st john's skirt, skool shoes and black socks) and met at C.C.K's control station (see Energy leh....) there lots ppl..... then when everyone reached, we went in and take the train to Bedok..... da whole journey, we stand and tok..... then when we reach there, we waited fer 'our' classroom to be opened so tt we can put out belongings in there.... then we all changed into 1/2 u (St john's zone t-shirt, st john's skirt, boots, beret and black socks) then we went to da parade square fer a rehersal.... so long!!! Reharsal got ppl fall out coz not feelin well... after da rehersal, we rested fer a while and then we went to changed into our full u.... Amelia veri smart lookin leh!!! She lyke a smaller version of mdm...... after changed into full u, we went back to da parde square and we had da real inspection!!! the weather is fine at first... very windy.... but half way through, it started to storm.... opps..... worry sia.... then muz stand veri long... lyke 1 hr lyke tt.... but our skool's squad veri gd... all tahan till da end.... onli 1 fall out onli.... but gd liao le.... others got lots fall out... then is lyke 'pia pia pia'.... coz da first-aider all running bout mah..... then lyke veri noisy lyke tt.... then at last da end liao... then every1 go home le... so tired....

Tired Part 2

2005-06-11T10:53:00.000+08:00

I'm really tired from all the problems.... i juz wan to rest.... leave this place an dgo to somewhere else which is quiet and free from problems and troubles...... i wan 2 go back 2 my p6 lives..... i wan all my p6 friends back... farah, sarah, mun yee, i miss u all..... esp. farah and sarah.... i will never forget da days we had together after the PSLE.... really, I miss all of u.... Mun yee, u r my best sista...... my best twin.... even when we had been seperated for long, i still will remember da days we had together, playin.... really.... it's not gd to be growing up..... i hate it..... things never go smoothly....... tired and helpless.... feeling so hopeless.... but, do anyone care?

Tired..........

2005-06-11T10:44:00.000+08:00

R u sayin bout me in ur post? if tt's wad u think, i had nothin else 2 say.... and juz wan 2 wish u a happy belated birthdae...

NVM...... NO ONE UNDERSTANDS TT'S ALL.....

2005-06-11T10:32:00.000+08:00

nvm wad all of u had said, think or felt... it's juz tt no one understand how I'm feeling, thinking rite now... all of you think i had not cross my own boundary and accept u all again.... but think again..... hu made me wad i'm now? hu made me shut myself away from all of u? i'm tryin all my best to accept u again... but, wad i had seen in ur hi5 journal entry, i discovered tt, u do not understand me at all..... i don't blame u.... no one will ever understand how hurt i am at wad u all had done....... u all r my trusted frends.... i never expect tt u all will do such a cruel thing and now, asking me to forgive u all..... i'm tryin but, wad's the use? I'm sure tt in all of u, ur had dislike me long ago.......... it's juz tt u all r avoidin it........ Can u all promise me tt i will NEVER get hurt again? Can u all promise me tt it will NEVER EVER happen again? If u all realli did, i'm sure only 2 of u r sayin da truth.... but the rest r not..... they r juz actin......... fakin.... thinkin tt i don't noe..... pls.... stop fakin..... if u all dun wish 2 promise, juz say it..... don't need 2 fake!!! I had enough of it!!!!

Wad da meaning of sincerity?

2005-06-09T21:01:00.000+08:00

Can I ask wad is the meaning of sincerity? Wad da ya mean sincerity? Why can't I see the sincerity in her..... does she really want the frienship back? I don't think so...... it's so obvious that it's not wad you think it is.... it's all fake...... everything here is fake...... nothing to true.......

Not the same...... feeling sad...

2005-06-05T21:18:00.000+08:00

All this cannot be changed liao... It's not anything that can be amended by saying sorry or what... It's a trust that is built over a period of time... I had beem hurt by you all during the leng zhan.... I never thought such thing will happen to us.... I had no trust in this friendship anymore... I'm just like wearing a beautiful decorated mask... i know that you all are trying hard to amend what you all did... but, it's not our problem... it's mine.... i'm unwilling to step out of the world of mine.... or rather... i had not courage to do so.... can you all promised me that history will not repeat themselves? I wanted to step out of the world..... I wanted to enter your world.... but, somehow, there is something behind pulling me back from enter your world... it's either you enter it with the key or my world, the fear in my heart, is destroyed.... you can't banged into the world or you will get yourself hurt.... i really wish to be friends with you all again... but, i dunnoe why.... i'm afraid.... afraid to get hurt again....

Sorry to hurt u gal...

2005-06-05T19:43:00.000+08:00

I'm really sorry that my post had hurt u gal..... i'm just typing in what i'm feeling.... i'm not tokin bout you, but all of them... i doesn't really mean to hurt u.... hope this doesn't break our frendship.... really... i'm sorry

Juz For You

My Life So Far...

afraid...

Basic Nursing Course

Wang Zi Bian Qing Wa...

Last Day...

For u...

TODAY

I'm back

StoRy..

Preview of my life....

My colour

Mie de inner valentine heart

My quiz

My dog breed

Wad my birthdate means

my birth order test...

Chinese...

fer u guys...

Poems.... frm ruby

Bloody suckin life...

Life.... Terrible....

Life...

Fun and joyous dae...

Happi birthday....

to all 6Dians

Sianzation dae

LIFE SIMPLY SUX....

Sick and Tired....

Blog Skin.... CHANGED AGAIN

NEW BLOG SKIN!!!!!!!

Kranji's 10th Year Anniversary -- Dansical

Poems 6

*sigh*

fer euu...

Bloody Dae sey..

pathetic sey...

Pure Freaking Day Fer Mie...

Tired Of you, gal...

My wishes fer now...

skool's de NDP...

in da ITC rm fer bio's thingy...

Selling Kranji 10th Anniversary Tickets...

Gd experinces...

word we women uses...

i need euu

Yuki...

I'm sho tired... give me a break...

Why?

I'm sho sick!!!

The broken trust...

Thr broken rubber band...

for u 2....

Will you come back?

freakin day

wadda.......

How much I'm worth?

Um...

APpoloGizeS...

Poem 4

My Personality Disorder

My Rising Sign

My Japanese Name

I WILL NOT

*sniff*.....

MisUndErrSttAndiiNg

We've wronged u

2 freaks

An annoucement from Amelia...

Poem 3

Friends

Poem 2

NOTHING

RUSH!!

Poem

The End Of The World

We are back to friends again

St John's 70th anniversary

St John Day...

St John day tomorrow....

sigh

sniff.....