[[* . Waiting for you . *]]

* HerLife
Sunday, July 31, 2005

[[* Gd experinces... *]]
Yesterday, was a beri goody-good dae fer me... at da morning, i got Air Rifle Course at CDANS... we first learn to shoot with the Rifle lying on the table of the range and shoot. We were allowed to shot a few more shots... me 1 shots got reach bull's eyes de side... wah... sho happy sey... after lying down, we were asked to stand up and shoot... (well, da correct thingy to do...) then, now i know how damn heavy da rifle is and how hard it is to get it up and aim... PERFECTLY.... haha.... well, da instructor had also said tt da rifle is about 4kg... omg.... after standin up, i was lyke not stable at all lor... it's was damn heavy... i was wonderin how aisyah could.... then it was sho difficult to aim... and i miss damn many shots.... boohoo..... then next da test... well, at least test betta.... didn't miss any shots.... budden, still not stable yet.... da test is bout whether we can get 5 shots together.... and i pass la... then we russ back 2 skool coz of da mass signin thingy.... and we reached skool at 12.59.... no lunch... luciky i bought time out eat le... or else i sure die de.... haha.... okay.... we assemble.... then we board bus la... i was damn tired lor... sho i sleep la... beri smooth sleep... haha... when we reached it was drizzlin.... damn wet and cold fer me coz i juz wake.... then we got walk grass.. omg... da water all splashed up and make da shoe wet.... yucks....then we were waitin fer our bread 2 come... i and gin ate 3 1/2 bread.... we share da 4th 1... we were damn hungry... haha.... then we were damn enthu into da whole thing lor... we were singin and singin.... and we played lyke siao... lyke p5 de NE show... haha... okay... is damn fun fer da whole thingy.... air rifle also...

today, wake up, my both arm hurts.... still can raise... budden after my nap, i can't even raise my left arm... if i do, it will hurt... ouch!!

Waiting for you at 5:20 PM

Thursday, July 28, 2005

[[* word we women uses... *]]
FINE
This is the word women use to end an argument when they feel they are right and you need to shut up. Never use fine to describe how a woman looks this will cause you to have one of those arguments.
FIVE MINUTEST
his is half an hour. It is equivalent to the five minutes that your football game is going to last before you take out the trash, so its an even trade.
NOTHING
This means something, and you should be on your toes. Nothing is usually used to describe the feeling a woman has of wanting to turn you inside out, upside down, and backwards. Nothing usually signifies anargument that will last Five Minutes and end with Fine.
GO AHEAD (With Raised Eyebrows)
This is a dare. One that will result in a woman getting upset over Nothing and will end with the word Fine.
GO AHEAD (Normal Eyebrows)
This means I give up or do what you want because I dont care You will get a Raised Eyebrow Go Ahead in just a few minutes, followed by Nothing and Fine and she will talk to you in about Five Minutes when she cools off.
LOUD SIGH
This is not actually a word, but is a non-verbal statement often misunderstood by men. A Loud Sigh means she thinks you are an idiot at that moment, and wonders why she is wasting her time standing here and arguing with you over Nothing.
SOFT SIGH
Again, not a word, but a non-verbal statement. Soft Sighs mean that she is content. Your best bet is to not move or breathe, and she will stay content.
THATS OKAY
This is one of the most dangerous statements that a woman can make to a man. Thats Okay means that she wants to think long and hard before paying you back for whatever it is that you have done. Thats Okay is often used with the word Fine and in conjunction with a Raised Eyebrow.
GO AHEAD.
At some point in the near future, you are going to be in some mighty big trouble.
PLEASE DO
This is not a statement, it is an offer. A woman is giving you the chance to come up with whatever excuse or reason you have for doing whatever it is that you have done. You have a fair chance with the truth, so be carefuland you shouldnt get a Thats Okay.
THANKS
A woman is thanking you. Do not faint. Just say youre welcome.
THANKS A LOT
This is much different from Thanks. A woman will say, Thanks A Lot when she is really ticked off at you. It signifies that you have offended her in some callous way, and will be followed by the Loud Sigh. Be careful not to ask what is wrong after the Loud Sigh, as she will only tell you Nothing.

Waiting for you at 9:05 PM

[[* i need euu *]]

my fwen ii need euu now-

pls take miie by derr hand.

stand by miie iin moii hour ob need,

take tyme tuhh underrstand.

take moii hand, dear fwen,n lead miie from tiis place.

chase away moii doubts n fears,wipe derr tears off from moii face.

fwen, ii cannot stand alone.i

i niid eur hand tuhh hold,

derr warmth ob eur gentle touchin moii world tats grown cold.

pls b a fwen tuhh miien hold miie dae by dae,

bcoz wiif eur luviin hand iin miine,ii noe we'll find derr way..

Waiting for you at 9:02 PM

[[* Yuki... *]]

Today we went 2 gin's house fer da chinese project thingy... yen teng go also... coz no 1 stay in skool... she lonely sia... then we wen 2 take LRT... okay... we r da noisiest group lor... wen reach gin's house, Yuki, her doggie was not lock... then wen reach da dog bark lyke siao... we sho scared sey... scare bite us... then finally, da dog lock up... at da balcony... sho poor thingy.... after da lunch, we let da dog smell me and cindy... budden, yen teng was sho scared lor... then when we let da dog out, she was screamin lyke siao... she ran 2 da balcony and lock herself there... her hand still got Sarsi lor... then she scared until she spill Sarsi all over.... wah lau... spill me sey... okay... then we laughed lyke siao lor... she damn scared lor... then Yuki lyke frightened by her le... haha.... then poor Yuki... wanna let Yuki smell Yen Teng budden she scared... sho we had 2 cover Yuki's eyes.... haha.... but still cannot... she still damn scared.... haha... then we bring da dog into da rm... Yen Teng scared until dun dare move.... haha... okay...tt's da end of our funni day...

Waiting for you at 8:48 PM

Wednesday, July 27, 2005

[[* I'm sho tired... give me a break... *]]

I've lost my smile,

slowly.

I've lost my stubborness,

slowly.

I've lost my courage,

slowly.

I've lost everything,

slowly,

when you all ask me to change.

Have you all really know how I feel?

How sad I am,

not to be myself in front of you?

I'm just like a person wearing a mask,

a beautifully decorated mask.

You all doesn't know anything.

How I feel,

how much i need care,

and, how much i need an encouragement,

saying that it's alright.

saying that nothing is wrong.

You never know,

you never will.

All you want is me to change.

If i change,

what will be left for me?

for the one and only me?

nothing.

i'll lost my smile, my stubborness, my activeness,

and everything else.

But, you never know how i feel,

all you know is to ask me to change.

I'm so sick and tired of changing,

leave me alone.

just leave me.

i'm not prepared for a new change.

i'm not.

i need a break,

so, just leave me alone....

Waiting for you at 9:00 PM

Tuesday, July 26, 2005

[[* Why? *]]

why act?

when you hate me?

why talk?

when you dislike me?

why can't you just say?

and ask me to change?

why can't you just tell me?

why must you do all this?

why must you act,

as you doesn' know it?

i treat you all as friends,

and i know you don't.

but why,

act and talk,

as if it's not?

it's hurtful,

to know the truth,

from someone else,

and not you.

just say,

when you want.

and i promise to leave you alone.

i will....

Waiting for you at 5:47 PM

Sunday, July 24, 2005

[[* I'm sho sick!!! *]]

dunnoe wad happen.... yesterday reached home then feelin sick le.... well, not actually when reached home la.... is on da way home.... feelin sho sick and tired.... sho decided not to go to Northvale fer BBQ.... big scarific de.... okay... then when on da bus, i sho tired tt i sleep..... haha... luckily didn't miss stop.... okay... coz it's quite 'cosy' de.... got air-con cum rain.... well, it suddenly rain.... beri beri big..... then at my bus-stop, i no umbrella, sho i go and drenched lor.... budden, i got go home and wash head la... budden, now still headache.... then is lyke sho tired.... and sick.... nose still runnin lyke siao.... then head pain lyke siao also... but still an type sho many thingys.... keke.... k le... i tired le... i go le... and sleep... haha....

Waiting for you at 11:33 AM

Saturday, July 23, 2005

[[* The broken trust... *]]

We were once close buddies,

talking and playing like there's no end.

We trusted you and trusted you,

but what you do?

You treat this trust for granted,

you take us for granted.

We helped you and believed you,

but, this is what we get from you.

You broke our friendship yourself,

just as soon as we know the truth.

We couldn't believe it,

you, a innocent little girl.

You acted and acted,

as if it's true.

You don't know that we,

had know the truth.

Thw wall, was built by you,

brick by brick.

If you wanted to tear this down,

you have to gain back the broken trust.

Waiting for you at 4:37 PM

[[* Thr broken rubber band... *]]

I trusted you,

I believed you,

thinking that you would take care of her.

I helped you,

and helped you,

thinking that things you could do to gain her.

You were so good before,

caring and understanding.

But now,

you said you are just pure shy,

and doesn't dare to talk.

Please, stop giving excuses,

saying you can't face her.

It's just you,

your high ego,

stopping you to talk.

At last, the truth is out,

but, you two had stopped talking.

Is it good or is it bad?

But I know she's feeling sad.

She wanted to patch,

but you don't.

What should I do,

to help you out?

I don't know.

I only know,

that this broken rubber band,

is hard to stick back.

Waiting for you at 4:34 PM

[[* for u 2.... *]]

Everything had changed,
Since the semester started.
It's not about what,
It's just about us.
We had minor misunderstanding,
Which lead to huge quarrels.
And now, it’s all useless,
To tell you all this truth.
I wanted to say,
Just wanted to say,
How much I care,
How I feel.
But, will the truth change anything?
Or will it?
I'm not sure.
And I don't have the courage too.
To tell you.
I'd changed,
That's what everyone told me.
And I believed it,
I changed.
I've lost my willfulness,
My courage,
My stubbornness.
All because of you.
You make me depend on you,
You make me change just for you.
My willfulness and stubbornness are tamed by you,
My courage are all stolen by you,
Accidentally.
It's what had happened,
When you pampered me too much.
When you care,
When you protect.
I've started to depend on you.
And I’ve started to think that,
It’s great.
But, things changed slowly.
Where were you?
When I needed you the most.
Where were you?
When I'm lonely,
And wanted someone to talk.
Where were you?
When I'm hurt terribly,
And when I just need someone to be there?
You are never there,
You never were.
And it was him,
Who was there,
Replacing you,
To talk to me.
He was much caring,
Much more better than you.
But, I still convinced myself,
At least, your heart, still have me.
Not long later, you changed totally.
Not five sentences,
And a bad word from your mouth is out.
You changed,
From the caring boy,
To a rude boy.
What had caused the changed?
Can you just tell me?
You had asked for a break.
You say we can't go on.
And I know myself,
It's hard to continue,
With you all changed.
I agreed, and we went separate ways.
From then on, we never talk,
We never smile,
And we never joked.
I regretted,
Not telling you how much I need you,
How much I care for you.
But now, it's of no use,
You had gone.
What can I do,
To get you back?

Waiting for you at 4:30 PM

[[* Will you come back? *]]

You make me depend on you,
Thinking that you will always be by my side,
Thinking that you will shine my road bright.
You are just like the sun.
You make me laugh and you make me relaxed,
You make me feel, as if nothing is impossible.
I thought, we would always be like that,
So, I didn't tell you how I feel,
How much I need you.
I thought you would never leave me,
But I'm wrong.
One day,
You said.
You wanted to leave,
And see,
The beautiful world.
No matter how I asked,
How I say,
You just wouldn’t stay.
I just wanted to ask,
Have you care?
Have you just ask how I feel,
And how will the life be without you?
You never did.
And now, I had to face this cruel truth myself,
I had to get used to the life without you.
It will be easy,
Wouldn’t it be?
Will you stay by my side?
Will you come back again?
Or will you just leave forever,
And seems we're never friends?What will you do?
It's hard to say,
It's hard to predict.
But I will be strong,
And I know,
You can come back,
When you want,
When you are tired.
When you want everything back.
And I promise you,
You will find back the strong girl,
That you love,
That you care.
And I will always be there,
Waiting for you,
Just like you did before.

Waiting for you at 4:28 PM

Thursday, July 21, 2005

[[* freakin day *]]

Okay... tooday is a freakin day fer mie.... 1st, we need 2 change out of skool shirt into SJ's zone shirt.... then we r lyke rushin mad fer time lor.... coz we need 2 reach St John's HQ's Lecture Rm by 3.30 pm (which is at Lavender MRT wif a long walk from there) ... then we tooday 2.15 then go.... sho rush.... then when we walked out, we saw yong ting's dad.... then he say he drive us there, sho we can hab time 2 eat lunch, or else we surely die of hunger de.... okay, then we didn't expect da guys 2 eat sho fast, then they go rush us.... then we didn't finish our food... damn it.... okay nvm.... then when we r on da car, we r lyke sho noisy lor.... we tok and tok.... then when we r reachin da complex, we saw 1D walkin 2 complex.... is lyke no 1 saw us.... sho pathetic... then when da traffic light change and time fer da car to move, Joaquim dashed cross road... then he was lyke damn close to da car lor, he's juz right infront of amelia... hope he saw us, if not, he's realli blind.... coz we wearin bright yellow shirt and is juz right infront of him lor... enough of him le... then we reached HQ at bout 3 sumthing... not a single soul out there... okay... there is, in da rm...then we waited and waited, finally da briefin started.... at last... da toker, told us bout wad we shld wear, wad is our checkpoints, and rules and regulations de... then finally, our groupings.... there's when me and amelia get damn angry.... first, amelia is seperated wif us.... she wif dunnoe which 2 SJ de.... okay.... group 86.... next, da 3 guys... guess wad??? they not seperated lor!!1 they in da same group de..... not fair lor!!!! okay... tt makes me by myself.... then at last, my name appear and wad?? i'm da only SJ in da group lor.... wif Scouts and NCC!!! wad da freak.... then da NHT's shirt.... we go by zone de lor... and we r lyke damn back lor... coz we zone 10 de then sho long... then when it's our turn, da 'S' size de shirt all finish le... sho me and amelia both get 'M' which is damn big fer her.... okay... mie is alright... thinkin tt we r gonna wear this big shirt to Northvale after NHT, we were lyke... oh mi gosh.... okay... then after tt, we walked 2 lavender MRT... on da way, we go bully guys... haha... coz they dunnoe how walked back... sho we lie 2 them tt it's da other way.... haha.... okay... finally we tell truth le... then da next time we lie them, they dun believe us.. coz once bitten, twice shy ma... haha... okay, after tt, we went Lot 1 2 buy present fer Jing Ying, coz we goin her house on Saturday fer BBQ..... then we went home... when reached homw is 6 sumthing le... sho tired.... k... tt's all my freaking day....

Waiting for you at 9:02 PM

Wednesday, July 20, 2005

[[* wadda....... *]]

OMG!!!!!!!!! SHE'S SHO......... SHE ONCE SUSPECTED TT **** ** LIKE HER!!!!!!!!!!!!! AND SHE EVEN LIKE *** ***** BEFORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OKAY.... DOESN'T MEAN ANYTHINGY HURTFUL KIEX.... I MEAN, PPL HAD DA RITE 2 LIKE PPL DE LA.... BUDDEN, SHE HAD LIKE 3 GUYS IN DA YEAR!!!!! OH MI GOSH!!!!!!!!!!! SHE SAYS IS ALL HISTORY LE... BUDDEN, WE 'BATTLE' WIF HER 2 ALLOW US C HER DIARY..... HAHA.... AND AT LAST, OF COZ WE WON LA!! (3 AGAINST 1, CAN WE LOSE?!) AND WE SAW HER DIARY, AND C ALL SHE HAD WRITTEN, SINCE 04 YEAR DE..... OKAY.... WE DIDN'T MEANT 2 'STEAL HER PRIVACY' LA.... IT JUZ 'TIAN DE FATE' LOR..... GIN WALK PAST HER COMPUTER..... THEN HER EYES SAW *** *****'S NAME LOR.... ONLY LOR!!!!!!!!!! THEN SHE ASK ASK ASK... THEN FINALLY WE BATTLE OUT DA DISC..... THEN WE LYKE PLAYING HIDE-AND-SEEK AS SHE IS CHASING FER HER DISC..... HAHA.... THEN WE DUN GIVE HER..... THEN WE R PRATICALLY RUNNIN ROUND DA COMPUTER LAB.... HAHA... WHEN SHE IS ABOUT 2 CHATCH US, WE PASS 2 SUM1 ELSE. FINALLY, SHE GIVES IN AND WE CAN LOOK AT DA DIARY!!!! NOT 'TOU TOU MO MO' DE.... IS 'GFUANG MING ZHENG DA' DE.... WAH..... 1ST TIME SEY, CAN LOOK AT PPL'S PRIVACY AT EASE!!! DUNNEED SCARED SCARED DE... HAHA.....

PS: DA PERSON ABOVE IS NOT AMELIA TSAN XIU YU LAI DE.... GIVE U CLUE...

1ST: A GIRL
2ND: OUR FREND
3RD: OUR CLASS
4TH: DATIN WIF *** *** ****
5TH: OUR CLASS DE ****.....
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[amelia tsan...LASTEST update ...on da gal n *** ****]
Both of them are at da cantten for a long long time le...i tink he going wat for her to go home...he is lik goin to wait until 6PM lor...(he started waiting at 3 pm...)Its been 20 min since she went to da canteen.....

Waiting for you at 4:57 PM

Monday, July 18, 2005

[[* How much I'm worth? *]]

Oh mi gosh!!! $1,542,000??? Is pathetic or wad??

I am worth $1,542,000 on HumanForSale.com

Waiting for you at 9:41 PM

[[* Um... *]]

Okay... read thier blog... um... dunnoe whether they seen my blog le... guess Shufen did... coz she got post.... well, nvm...

Waiting for you at 9:27 PM

Sunday, July 17, 2005

[[* APpoloGizeS... *]]

guess that lot ppl will come my blog and hab a look.. sho might as well blog now.... um... yea... let's start la...

First, I wouldn't hate da 2 of u after this thingy... although we can hardly b frends.... (but there's still a 0.000000000000000000000000000000000000001% :P) miracles do happen... but not often.... also dunnoe wad thingy i tokin.... k.... ignore this....

Second, I'm willin 2 stop this fightin....

Third, I didn't spread da rumour bout Shufen and Weisheng.... neither did gin... well, dunnoe hu had said it... but guess tt person is tryin 2 do sumthing?

Fourth, I'm sorry fer being sho hurtful and blunt fer mie previous posts.... i'm juz.... well, can say tt cannot stand ppl diaoin mie frends fer no reason... sho.... hope u noe wad i mean la...

Fifth, bout da diaoin thingy, maybe is gin c wrongly or wad la... and i also wrong to blame u 2 without seein this thingy with my own eyes la... but gin also didn't diao u 2....

Sixth, Promise that on monday i will not lose my temper la... i will not argue with someone... promise...

Seventh, I not tryin 2 stop u 2 and ur gorgors 2 b 2 gether la.... dun get it wrong hor....

Eighth, i not trying to be mean or wad on my posts and taggies.... juz a moment of anger....

Nineth, Really sho sorry fer wad had happen la... sorry if this fight had caused anyone 2 be hurt in sumway or another...

Tenth, i know it's not bout sayin sorry 2 hu or hu's fault... but i think i can only say sorry .....

Waiting for you at 7:29 PM

[[* Poem 4 *]]

In your eyes,

who are we?

a rumor spreader?

a group of people,

who are irritating?

I can't believe it,

this is how u think.

to trust that you had known us,

like a zillion years ago.

We used to be that close,

we used to be friends.

we used to talked forever,

like there is no end.

But now, we had just 'quarrel'

over this thing.

it's not partly our fault,

nor either theirs.

What more do you want us to do?

we had apologized,

right here on our blogs.

So let's have a small talk,

right there in school.

I promise you to control my temper,

as long as I could.

Waiting for you at 3:22 PM

[[* My Personality Disorder *]]

Your mood swings make a roller coaster look tame!When you're up, you're a little bit crazy...And when you're down, your whole world is crashingScary thing is, these moods can change by the minute!

Waiting for you at 3:19 PM

[[* My Rising Sign *]]

Taurus...

You are the ultimate rock - stable and centered.
People turn to you in crisis and count on you for calm.
Stubborn and strong minded, you can't be pushed around.
You are also tenacious, and you always will stick with something difficult.
A bit fan of nature, you're attracted to the beauty of the outdoors.
And sometimes, you find it easier to relate to animals than people.

Waiting for you at 2:56 PM

[[* My Japanese Name *]]

"Suzuki Minase"

Waiting for you at 2:33 PM

[[* I WILL NOT *]]

I juz wanna say something here...

"I WILL NEVER HIT ANYBODY NO MATTER HOW ANGRY I AM WITH THE PERSON.... "

Waiting for you at 2:28 PM

Saturday, July 16, 2005

[[* *sniff*..... *]]

*sniff*... ergg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i'm suffering frm a severe flu.... and cough.... *cough*..... sho xing ku..... :( sho tired also... boohoo.... ergg!!!!!!!!

Waiting for you at 11:17 AM

[[* MisUndErrSttAndiiNg *]]

Juz read her blog.. well, juz wanna say.. wad u tryin 2 do? makin us feel guilty? okay... MAYBE we are really too much... and i'm not tryin 2 mean k? 'Freaks' is juz a word tt i used to describe a person i dislike k? most ppl i noe noe tt i used this word damn often....not ANYTHING else k? sho get it rite 1st... dun i have da rite 2 used a word 2 describe ppl i dislike??

Did we say u 2 r flirts? Well, i DON"T think so.... sho dun anyhow say we did say k? We DIDN'T go round spreadin rumors bout sf and ws k? dun anyhow say..... we juz talked among ourselves.... dun tell me we dun have da freedom 2 talk? and beside, we r NOT talkin bout u 2 lor... it's juz tt gin is askin us wad she shld do IF sf and ws stead ONLY ma....

maybe u 2 really didn't diao gin... maybe is to sumone NEAR her... wadeva u wanna say lor... but gin didn't diao u 2 lor.... well, and da thingy on being short, i admit tt there r advantages and disavantages la... being tall also la... k la... here say sorry lor....

being frendx wif u 2 ah?? um... is 0.0000000000000000000000001% success de lor... (sorry fer being sho blunt k?) realli... impossible de....

Jun Chi, hope u noe tt it's juz a dare.... hope tt gin didn't hurt ur feelings la.... gin sho scared tt u dun dare face her.... then cannot be frends.... and nelson, i dunnoe wad 2 say le.... is... um.... is lyke wad gin's blog say lor.... scare me sey....

Okay.... conclusion is tt, maybe a beri beri big de misunderstandin lor... and no offence fer wad written la... is all how i feel de ma... but sorry if offended anyone la...

Waiting for you at 11:08 AM

Thursday, July 14, 2005

[[* We've wronged u *]]

I'm so sorry,

my dear friend.

i couldn't believe all this,

that i don't trust u at all.

I'm really sorry,

sorry for not listening to u,

ur point of views,

ur part of story.

I had believed her,

and spoiled our friendship totally.

luckily we had a nice talk,

and we had find out da truth.

But, what should we do now?

since we know the truth?

should we just ask her?

or should we just leave it?

I don't know....

everything is happening...

friendship, relationship, studies...

i don't know...

Waiting for you at 9:29 PM

[[* 2 freaks *]]

Okay.... there was two freaks yesterday.... girl freaks..... from other class de... they go and diaox yee gin.... wad the freak.... got eyes problem izit? or u just got nothing better 2 do? gin had done nothing to you okay? u 2 freaks just diaox her cause of him.... dunnoe wad hack he had said again... muz find out from him le!!! it's lyke ppl did nothing lor... then u 2 just diaox her.... eye sight got problem then go check la... dun anihow diaox ppl... coz it's irritatin....

Waiting for you at 8:31 PM

[[* An annoucement from Amelia... *]]

THIS IS AN ANNOUCEMENT FROM AMELIA TSAN XIU YU OF CLASS 1C.... SHE WANTS TO TELL THE WHOLE WORLD THAT SHE HATES LOAU XUAN YU FOR LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Waiting for you at 8:19 PM

Sunday, July 10, 2005

[[* Poem 3 *]]

When you are lonely,

just remember this:

Somewhere in this place,

there is someone,

who will be thinking of you,

someone,

who dreams of your smile.

And will be thinking

that life with your presence,

are worth while.

Waiting for you at 9:17 PM

[[* Friends *]]

We were once,

a very close pair.

we laughed, we played

and we talked as if there's no tomorrow.

You are always there,

when i need you.

when i need someone,

to know my troubles.

But i can't believe it,

when they say who u really are.

i tried to convice myself,

i tired to persuade myself,

not to believe them,

but you, my once true friend.

But, the next day,

you told him how you feel.

that makes him say me something bad.

From then on,

i believed them.

i'm with them,

at the same side.

We changed.

we had done everything,

everything to make us strangers.

I graudually dislike you,

really, very much.

most of them persuaded me,

to let our friendship be back again.

But, i can't.

you had broke the trust.

and it's not just a normal trust.

it's a very big trust.

And the hurt you had created in me,

is a very deep hurt.

it's not easily cure,

or maybe, never cure.

Just leave me alone,

don't show me your face,

your pathetic face.

It makes my blood boil...

and if you just go away,

maybe, it's good for both of us.

Waiting for you at 1:03 PM

[[* Poem 2 *]]

I should have cherish you at the first place.

i should had let you know,

how i feel,

how much i need you.

If i had done so,

it wouldn't happen in this way now,

or will it still be?

Tell me, what should i do,

to let you stay by my side?

Even if you know how i feel,

will you just hate me and just leave?

I don't know.

my moods,

my feelings,

had all changed.

when you left.

Now, what can i do?

nothing.

i can do nothing.

i can only watch you leave me slowly...

Waiting for you at 12:49 PM

[[* NOTHING *]]

um.. nothing at all la... just checkin mail then come cross this word... i mean phrase...

Love is like a butterfly...

the more you chase it,

the more it elude you.

But if you let it fly,

it will just come to you,

when you least expected it.

meaningful ah?? haha...

Waiting for you at 12:10 PM

Saturday, July 09, 2005

[[* RUSH!! *]]

things r happening very fast and well, sort of a funny way... and i MEANT it!!! It's happening damn fast!!! First, ge dou tian wang is showing on SCV... sho goody-good... 31st July 7pm. Second, C**** and R** Y**** is together... well, both denied everything no i MEANT it!!! EVERYTHING!!! Just want to tell them... even though both had 0% to c my blog... and i MEANT it!! ZERO k??? it's pretty obvious tt they 2 of u r together... it's lyke... u 2 is blushin red lor.... then u still denied EVERYTHING!!! and we ask coz we care bout u, girl.... but wad u reply?? dun care?? wah lau... u very wad le... we ur frends le... then u lyke tt?? then we dun care u cry adn say we dun care bout u... wad the freakin thing this is????

Waiting for you at 7:49 PM

[[* Poem *]]

You make me depend on you,

thinking that you will always be by my side,

whenever i need you.

You are just like a sun,

shining my road bright.

shining my bad days away,

turning them from bad to good.

But now, you say you wanted to leave me.

you wanted to go, and explore.

no matter what I say,

you just don't want to stay.

What about me?

i had to get used to the life without you.

it will be easy,

wouldn't it be?

Will you still stay by my side?

will u come back again?

or will u just leave forever

and just seems, i don't know you?

What will you do?

it's hard to say.

But i know,

you can come back,

when you are tired.

And, I will always be there,

just like you did before.

Waiting for you at 7:36 PM

[[* The End Of The World *]]

Why does the sun go on shining

Why does the sea rush to shore

Don't they know it's the end of the world

'Cause you don't love me any more

Why do the birds go on singing

Why do the stars glow above

Don't they know it's the end of the world

It ended when I lost your love

I wake up in the morning and I wonder

Why everything's the same as it was

I can't understand, no, I can't understand

How life goes on the way it does

Why does my heart go on beating

Why do these eyes of mine cry

Don't they know it's the end of the world

It ended when you said goodbye

Why does my heart go on beating

Why do these eyes of mine cry

Don't they know it's the end of the world

It ended when you said goodbye

Waiting for you at 7:15 PM

Sunday, July 03, 2005

[[* We are back to friends again *]]

At last, the war had slowly stopped... we are back to friends again. But, I'm sorry to say that I still couldn't forgive her. She had really break the trust I had for her before. But, don't worry. We will still be friends lyke last time and play lyke siao... haha.... and really sorry if i ever hurt ur feelings with all the scoldings i had scolded u... haha....

Waiting for you at 9:25 PM

Saturday, July 02, 2005

[[* St John's 70th anniversary *]]

Today st john de 70th anniversary dae.... got carnival cum open house... muz wake up early again... not enough sleep le.... die die.... tired la...kss got booth lex.... then we go there support them... then we also help them out la.... then quite fun la... we won da zone's best decorate food stall.... sho shiok man.... then at 3pm we go home.... on way 2 MRT we lyke siao le.... amelia, may, aiysha and me laugh laugh laugh... then MRT come le... then may dun wan go in coz many ppl... amelia accompany her lor.... then i and aisyah go in... then decide to wait fer them at Jurong East... then i and aiysha sleep on MRT coz too tired liaox..... then at Jurong East da train 2 Yew Tee come le... then decided dun wait coz they still at Dover.... after tt, I and Aiysha go Lot 1 to eat... then we go home beri tired.... haha

Waiting for you at 10:15 PM

Friday, July 01, 2005

[[* St John Day... *]]

Wah... todae is st john dae lai de... wif NCC also dex.... muz wake up early go skool and wait fer da parade start... sho hot sia.... luckily at sec 5 there.... no ren shi de ppl... sho not pai sey.... and also in da middle dex..... at last le... in middle liao.... keke.... then we stand there fer sho long.... then after tt, we go foyer to take fotos.... then after tt, we go back st john's rm take baggie.... sho bad dex.... cannot carry baggie... muz hug it.... dunnoe y la.... then baggie sho heavy, wan die le la.... then reach class le.... then frewns c lor.... then recess le... walk out building, forget wear beret....keke... luckily ppl remind me.... keke... after recess still need to stand behind wait fer classes 2 go... wad the.... nvm.... then went back class.... then lesson started lor... then nothing special le....

Waiting for you at 9:55 PM