* HerLife
Saturday, June 04, 2005
[[* It's not the same anymore.... *]]
After what had happened today, I just discovered that our friendship is not that strong after all... everything had changed.... i had stopped trusting them.... why is it so?? Do they know what they do hurt me terribly? It's nothing that can be amended by just saying sorry. They doesn't understand this point, but KwaiGa understands it and know. I had lost trust in them. A trust that is built after a few months..... and now, its complete destroyed. I had shut myself away from them. They live in fanciful world of theirs... a world coloured by true friendship, trust, laughter and happiness. And what about me? I lived in a gloomy world. A world with nothing but hate, anger, sadness, nothing clled friendhip and nothing called trust. The only trust I had are just in Kwai and my sista. Only they had the keys to my world.... and only they can enter my world. A world surrounded by thick walls. A world just made for me... they couldn't enter as they are just too fanciful to enter here... i had been wearing a mask for a long time and now, it's time to take it down and had a long rest from the fake world outside and once again, return to my world...
Waiting for you at 10:34 PM